My Sunshine [BoyxBoy]

Chapter 36

A/N: I'M SO SO SORRY! I haven't updated in like two months. I was just a little busy in real life. And I'm not on wattpad much anymore. I've been here for almost seven years now. I made a wattpad account when I was like 13 and now I'm 20. My life has changed so much. At 13 I was just a sad lonely teenager (my emo phase lol) with nothing to do so I escaped into this world of fanfics to avoid real life but now I'm actually happy with where I am in life. I have a job and I'm in a relationship. I kind of like real life now so... I still love writing though! It's like stress relief for me. I'm definitely going to complete this, so don't worry. Thanks for being patient. I really appreciate it.

QUICK RECAP: Sam and Dan were finally in a happy relationship but because of a car accident Sam loses all memories of his relationship with Dan. Everyone keeps telling him that Dan is his boyfriend but he doesn't believe it. He visits Kyle for... stress relief... but Kyle refuses and calls Dan. Kyle tells Sam about what he knows about Sam's relationship with Dan. Sam's still confused about why he would choose to be in a relationship after being... raped, but somehow he remembers the first time he met Dan and he knows it's true deep inside and he's determined to find out why he decided to be Dan's boyfriend. Now continued... (I don't know how to do recaps OK?¿ I tried)

SAM'S POV

Laughs.

Laughs, that's all I heard as I lay there on the bed, completely naked, covered in red, hot blood, dried tears staining my cheeks.

"He looks ugly."

Laughs.

"Yeah, he does."

All I heard was laughs.

"Pathetic."

Again.

"He looks so miserable."

And again.

"God, it turns me on."

AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN!

"It suits you, baby."

"It sure does."

"Ugly piece of shit."

"Who's idea was it to carve it on his back?"

"Mine!"

"Well, congratulations. He looks even more ugly."

"Perfect."

"You bastard. That was your intention all along, wasn't it?"

"Of course."

Laughs. Laughs everywhere. They're mocking me. Choking me. I can't breathe. I can't move. It hurts. It hurts so much. Stop. Please stop. Escape. I need to escape. I need to get away. I need to breathe. But I can't. I just can't. I'm drowning. I'm drowning but there's no water. Just laughter. Evil, loud, roaring laughter. Save me. Help me. Someone. Someone please. Please help me. Take me out of this place. Please... someone. Help. Help me. Please hel-

"WAKE UP, SAM!"

I jolted awake, gasping and shaking, my breaths coming out in rapid pants. For several painful seconds, I couldn't even see anything. I was surrounded by darkness and my head spun. My vision kept going in and out of focus and I found it impossible to concentrate on anything. The room was too small, it made me claustrophobic. The floor was shaking, it made me dizzy. The walls were closing in, my lungs were squeezing and I was going to be all alone and no one was going to help me. I would die. I would die and no one would know. No one would even care. Because I was ugly and I was pathetic and I didn't matter. I didn't fucking matter and I was alone, I-