Bizzle Imagines

The worst feeling ever

My high school history class was mixed with juniors and seniors. I was a junior, and a really cute senior asked me to study with him at his house after school. I thought I was lucky to have a popular senior hanging out with me. After school, I lied to my mom so I could hang out with him. He didn’t want to go inside his house; he just wanted to hang out in my minivan, which was parked at the park across the street. He suggested we go to the back for more room.

We ended up making out, and I was so excited to go brag to my friends at school the next day, until he took it way further than I was okay with. I was raped in my own car.

I kept it a secret; I was a virgin and did not want to believe I had lost my virginity that way. I started skipping and getting bad grades in school. My rapist wanted to keep hanging out with me, and I kept going because I wanted to pretend like I was okay with it.

After seeing all the cuts I inflicted on myself, my parents found out. I was hospitalized in the behavioral health unit; I was very angry for being put in there, but now I know it was worth it.

I hope if this happens to you, you will press charges and get help right away and realize you don’t have to pretend that something is okay when it’s not.