Love Is Such A Strong Word

Chapter 17

Isabelle's POV

Cassie is so beautiful. After first seeing her for the first time I couldn't leave the incubator. Making sure that I kept putting my hand through as to make sure that she knew I was there. Every now and then the doctor would come check up on her life support and the heartbeat monitor. Then Olivia came to see how I was. Bringing me clothes, toiletries and my laptop. This is the longest I'd ever gone without the internet, yet it didn't bother me.

All that bothered me was the safety of my angel. Then eventually Joe came to my side. The whole thing had hit him almost as hard as me. Joe stayed with me for an hour or two. We said nothing to eachother. Just sitting there in an awkward silence. No social interaction. This was certainly the lowest point I'd been.

He kept trying to touch the incubator, I would bat his hand away. Then he'd try and put his arm around me but I'd move away. Till eventually we both burst into tears, joining eachother in a massive bear hug. Gripping on for dear life. That if any of us let go that'd be it.

The days carried on simultaneously. Day after day the exact same. The tears becoming less and less recent till eventually I felt like there was no water left in my body to cry. The doctors thought that I didn't know but it was obvious that her health was getting worse, weaker by the day. If it carried on like this she'll have left me by this time next week. But I didn't know what to do. For the first time in forever I didn't have any control over anything.

Joe was getting more worried not just for Cassie but for me more than anyone...I could tell.

Joe's POV

There was no life running through her anymore. She was breaking down. My beautiful soulmate normally bubbly and so full of life. Now an empty case. With no morals or meaning. All her life revolved around anymore was being with Cassie and crying, she wasn't even talking to Olivia. That was probably the scariest part. Whenever you put them together they could talk for England. Yet now Isabelle didn't want to talk to anybody let alone her bestfriend.

The only people she'd show any interaction with would be the doctors telling her how Cassie was doing. And it was getting worse by the day.

Eventually 4 days after Cassie had been brought into this world I got the most worried I'd ever bin. Isabelle hadn't even for a day and a half. And all she did was stare at my poor princess.

So I told her.

"Isabelle, we need to get you home. You're really unhealthy. There is something wrong. You need to see a doctor yourself and get a meal down yo-"

"JOE I DON'T NEED YOU TO BABYSIT ME! IM A GROWN WOMAN AND AM EXTREMELY CAPABLE OF LOOKING AFTER MY SELF!!!"

I then tried to put my arm round her but she lurched forward and slap me. A good, hard slap sounding like an applause of a crowd.

It was then as if time froze, everything stoop and went in slow motion. My love had just full on slapped me when I tried to show my care, trying to help her, trying to show the love I have!!! I'd had enough, this brought me to the boiling point....I was leaving.

I sprinted into the car park and to my car. Flung open the car door and hopped in. Tears began to fall as I pulled out on to the open road. Then I suddenly began to sob. Viciously sobbing to the point where I couldn't breath. Where I was unable to think. Except for the debate of wether sticking by Izzy or was there even any point anymore?

I loved this girl I could easily admit but did she even love me anymore?

Eventually I reached our house, ran into out room and began packing everything I could into a suitcase. Then I collapsed, the determined sadness took over and I hysterically cried into my knees.

I cried for the times I knew you were mine, I cried for the memories I'd leave behind. I cried for the pain the old an the new. I cried for the times that I loved you.

Finally I got up and zipped up the suitcase, then carrying it out the car, put it in the boot and drove. Where? I wasn't sure. But I just knew I had to leave.