John Watson act like he does not feel attracted to James Moriarty

Chapter 4- James POV

POV JAMES MORIARTY

I was being way too nice to John, people can't think I am kind. I am not. I need to hurt John.

"You little dumb, ugly, failed Johnnie-boy," I said.

I looked at John and he looked sad... But I need to continue with hurting him...

"You are not going to make it John... You will be dead in a minute. Your fear will ruin you and nobody will help you, Sherlock is an egoist and yeah so you are alone."

"How do you mean I'm not going to make it?"

Sherlock laughed. Uhg I hate his laugh.

"Are you that blind John, there is coming a war," Sherlock said. John looked at me and I just nodded. 

"You guys are joking right?" John laughed. I wish we were joking. I gave him a serious face. 

"Guys, this is not funny," John said. 

"I think it is. And all those dumb people will die." Sherlock said. There he has a point, but I need all those stupid people to do tasks for me. 

"Yeah, only the smart people will survive," I said.

"Oh, so when will it start? Then I can prepare myself to die..."

"You have nobody to say goodbye to, John," I said.

"So do you have anyone to say goodbye to then, James?"

I don't have, but honestly, I won't die. 

"No, but I don't have to because I am smart enough to survive!"

"Sherlock will hmm, maybe survive. But I don't think so, I will personally make sure that he will die." I said.

Sherlock laughed.

"You have to be kidding me, James, you can't do shit. I am way smarter than you." Sherlock said.  Ha ha ha that is the funniest joke I heard in ages. 

"Let's ask John," James said.

"S-sherlock?"John said hesitating. He is only saying this because they are roommates for sure. 

"We both know that is not true," I said and I winked at John. I can see a little blush in his cheeks, I must admit that it is cute. 

"John, why are you like this? I live with you for years and now you think that a stupid psychopath is smarter than me." Sherlock said.

"I- I don't know," John said. 

"Do you like him?" Sherlock said.

"I don't know him," John said back. 

"A Johnnie, do you want to know me then? I can help you with that." I said smirking. 

"Yeah, thanks, I would love that," John said grinning.

a shit I didn't expect that he wanted to know me.

"I don't have time, to be honest, but I will make time. In 1 day and 3 hours and 12 minutes and 33, 32, 31 seconds is the war going to start..." I said.

"James, you really think that I want to spend the last hours before the war with you?"

"Yes, why not? you wanted to know me better right?" and he smirked. Okay, whatever he wants. Or whatever I wanted...

"Yes..."

"See you more at the same place and the same time," I said.

"But that is for about three hours before the war starts?" John said. 

"Yes, that is the offer and it is then or it is never," I said. 

"Do I already scare you little Johnnie-boy? now you have Sherlock with you and tomorrow you will be alone. I can't imagine how scared you will be then. You will pee in your pants probably." I said.

"Ha ha ha, you are not funny..." John said.

"No, that is true, I am only funny when you are in pain," James said.

"You don't have a heart," I said.

"Better for everyone," I said.

"Not for me and not for yourself too."

"Why what is the difference if I have a heart?"

"First, you have a heart, otherwise you will not be breathing right now. Second, then you are capable of loving someone and being loved and that is a wonderful thing in this awful world."

"But Johnnie, you have a heart, but I am sure no one is capable to love you, so you will never be loved."

I am so funny, right? O it was not funny apparently because I saw John walking away. Wait... is he crying?