Wide Awake

Prologue

This is my first fanfic, so try not to be to harsh. I'm trying and learning as I go.

I never expected this to happen. I rested my head in my palms as I mentally cursed myself. I didn't notice till now that I was crying.

Why the hell are you crying,Jess? " Maybe because I just fucked shit up." I had raised my voice. Now someone was about to come over here and make this a whole lot worse. All I could think about , all I could see was that moment flashing back to me. Him, swinging his fists, desperately trying to get just one good hit in. The tears started to stream down faster. His body lying there, limp and lifeless. Why couldn't I just keep it to myself. None of this would've happened if I just kept my mouth shut. " Are you ok?" she had asked me, but I was too gone to listen. " Do I need to call the police?" No! I'm fine just go. I don't need you to call. you'll just make it worse! "Hold on everything is going to be okay." It was too late. The words had never left my mouth. My cheeks felt like ice. All of a sudden warm tears started to run down my cheeks, and they wouldn't stop. "It's okay. Everything is going to be okay." If only she knew. I'm heartbroken, dying inside, and I'm desperately choking back my breakdown, but the images just keep pushing me closer to the edge. I've fallen off the wagon. There's no turning back. If only I could turn back time. I would stop myself from meeting him, I would live my life, and I would never be here. Leaning against wall in an alley, praying for this all to go away. As if I am dreaming, having the worst nightmare of my life, and I'll wake up in my bed, in my house, in my room. As if this is just a dream, a terrible, unpleasant, dream. No. This all happened, the good parts, the bad, and the heavenly. This not a dream. I am WIDE AWAKE...........

«Author's notes: Just wanted to make a quick note. I wanted to put a prologue before the actual story so you'll want to read more. please comment, and vote. I really want to hear what you have to say. Hope you enjoyed the prologue.»{don't forget to vote.}