the moment when everything falls apart.

Cloudy, gloomy and all in shades of grey
Can someone hear those noises?
Or am I alone in this war again?

The rain isn't over
There is a storm inside of my head
A fake smile is drawing all over my face

i'm such a jerk
i've let them down
i've let myself down

i know that i hurt you, that I made you feel bad
sorry, yeah, i'm sorry, but, it can't compare with the scars that i've made to myself, so many times
i'm just laid on the cold floor, asking why

holding tears, hidden fears
all is just fading away, a lot of dreams, a lot of promises
that i have afraid to not reach

and when the fire was coming
i just pushed the people away
tried to kept them in the safe place
while i just run away

i'm now alone
i have no idea of what to do
try to disappear and have my mind clean
i just don't want to keep hurting you
i just want find the best me

and in the moment when everything falls apart
the fire goes off and everybody is gone
all keeps so gloomy and cloudy
that it is tricky to think in my next move

and in the moment when everything falls apart
all the pieces started to match
all the people is waiting to giving up
try to keep themselves safe and hoping that the disaster affects someone else

when everybody is in their glory times
i found myself hopeless in this war
i just keep fighting alone with my demons
i just keep walking and wandering
just looking to nowhere, just looking for peace

and in the moment when everything falls apart
i'm just walking away without noise
so nobody will know the exact moment in which I disappeared
and i can have some time to think and just breath

and in the moment when everything falls apart
i just can see how it goes and celebrate
cause there will be a brand new and more powerful version of me
after this crazy rain.

Then I can go back proudly to home and to your eyes.