Locked In~NaLu! (One Shot)

One Sided Feelings

*Lucy's POV*

I fell asleep in Natsu's arms.

Was that a dream?

I mean, it was wonderful, but too good to be true.

I woke up to someone brushing my hair out of my face. Before I could open my eyes. I heard his voice.

"You're right by me, but you feel so far away."

Natsu? What is he talking about?

  "I want to be reliable, I want to be useful. I want to be your happiness."

You are my happiness.

I want to open my eyes, but if I do. I'll realize this is just a dream.

"But I can't. I'm not the one. You'll find a guy out there, someone who's everything you need. Someone who can stand beside you and walk with you. Someone you can share your life with. I'm just not good enough. Even though it's not me, I'll stay by your side. We'll be friends forever. I know I can hide my feelings, because losing you will be much worst."

Why do I have to dream of this? It pains me to know he wouldn't say that.

My one sided feelings are destroying me.

I felt them touch me again. Caressing my cheek. Then I heard it. The words that made this all too good to be true.

"I love you Lucy."

I can't take this. I opened my eyes to stop it from continuing. But when my vision cleared, I saw him. I saw who was caressing my cheek.

Natsu.

So this was all real? Did he say he loves me?

He noticed I was awake and pulled his hand back. His eyes widened and he sprung up, "I-I....sorry!" He was about to get up but I grabbed his arm.

"You do?"

He looked back at me, "do I what?"

"Do you really love me?"

He turned away again, after a second or two, he chuckled, "so you heard me after all, huh."

It was true.

He does love me.

He stretched and got up, "well let's go see if we can open the door."

What? At a time like this, he really wants to check that? I got up and looked at his back, "Natsu what do you mean? You can't just say you love me then change the topic. You haven't heard what I have to say." He stopped from walking out my room, he didn't turn around but shrugged his shoulders, "it's okay. I don't need an answer."

"Natsu."

He lightly laughed and shook his head, "forget it. If the snows gone, let's go find someone to fix your heater."

He laughs and changes the topic, but he doesn't move. I stared at his back, I have no idea what expression is on his face right now. What is he feeling?

"Natsu."

He didn't say anything.

"Natsu, look at me."

"..."

"Please."

As if a second lasted a year, he slowly turned around. Barely able to face me. He grinned at me and rubbed his head. But I didn't look at his smile. I looked at his eyes.

The pain that was held in them. The hurt he was feeling. It seemed like any second he could cry. Just looking at them filled with so many emotions, it pained my chest.

Without another word, I walked up to him and hugged him. As my arms wrapped around his waist and his arms wrapped around my shoulders, that was the one push that got him to open up. He started to cry. I felt tears on my head as he tried to muffle his cries in my hair. He was shaking uncontrollably. His grip around me tightened.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! Don't leave me please. I know what I feel is wrong. And I know that I shouldn't have said what I did. But I didn't choose to give my heart to you, it just happened. So please, don't leave. I'll control my feelings. And I won't get in the way...I'm sorry." Every word was like a bullet to my heart. Never did I want to see Natsu cry this much.

"Natsu please. Stop." I hugged him tighter, "don't you dare think that I would leave you." His tears slowed down, "you're not mad?" I shook my head. He paused and let go of me, "why?"

I let go of him and finally looked at him. His eyes were red, there were still tears on his face. He sniffled, trying to stop. "What do you mean why?"

He looked at me nonchalantly, "...why?...you're supposed to be mad. You're supposed to not want to be friends with me anymore. You're supposed to be weirded out...not tell me that it'll be fine and we'll still be friends."

"...well I don't want us to be friends anymore."

He laughed, it was emotionless, "of course you wouldn't want that." He shook his head and walked out my room. He was headed towards the front door.

Everyone I love has to walk out my life, but I won't let it happen again. Not him.

Before he could reach for the doorknob, I pulled him by the wrist. I swung him around and hugged him once more, "won't you just let me talk?! Just hear me out before you jump to conclusions!" He didn't resist my grip, so I didn't move. I had so much to say, but how do I say it?

"You said you love me, but why won't you let me say it back?"

"What?"

"Natsu you are reliable. You always take care of me. You keep me safe. You're always there to lend me a hand, whether it's for little things or something that matters. You're always there. Just being yourself is more than enough. You are my everything. You are my happiness. You may think I'm doing this out of pity. But I'm not! You can't just say you love someone then try to leave them! If you love me, you have to stay by my side! Forever! We can't be friends, I want to be with you. I want to be able to walk the path of my life, with you. And to walk with you on yours. If you leave now, then I'll always be stuck with my one sided feelings."

He didn't say anything. He didn't move. He didn't do anything. He just stood there.

...

"Natsu?"

"...one sided feelings?"

"What?"

"You've had feelings....for me?"

I got him to confess. I tried to get him to stay. I gave him a speech about not leaving me.

But through it all, I haven't told him what I feel.

"Natsu."

"...yea?"

"I love you."

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"What?"

I smiled at him, "I love you Natsu. I always have."

He slowly took a breath and little by little, a smile started to form. He laughed and rubbed his eyes, more tears were forming.

He looked at me and shook his head, he took a step forward and put his arms out. He hugged me. He chuckled and said into my ear...

"You fixed my one sided feelings."