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sTRESSIN

Hi lovelies, this isn't a tag, but it's something I need to get off my chest a bit.

I've been super duper stressed and I'm sure it's been showing a bit on my writing.  But I've kind received some... stressful news recently.

Everyone's okay - no one's hurt or anything (thank goodness) but...

For anyone who doesn't already know, I'm a college student - a Music Major.  I go to a small college, my community college.  I'm there with a scholarship that pays my tuition each semester (we'll call this scholarship... Stars).

Anyway, Stars pays for my tuition and it's up to me (*cough cough my parents cough*) to pay for my books and fees.  It's a really good scholarship, considering my twin sister (we'll call her Diana) is going to college at the same time (and also has no job).  For reference, fees average out to about 700 dollars a semester, plus maybe another 700 in books.  1,400.  With my sister, that ends up being nearly 3,000 per semester on fees and books.

Tuition itself is somewhere around 2,500 by itself - for just the one of us.

SO YEAH IT'S PRETTY NICE.

In order to receive this scholarship - Stars- I have to go to my community college.  

And it was no big deal before, I've never intended on going elsewhere.

Until I got... stressing news.

My college has fallen very, very deep in debt.  

Like 2 Million dollars in debt.

So far in debt, that ... they've started cutting Majors.  All Majors with less than 10 people in them.

I bet you can guess where this is going.

... My college is going to cut the Music Majors.

For a while, I was okay with it - sad, but okay with it because I was also told that they'd let me finish getting my degree, considering that I've put a year in already.  I was told that they'd just stop accepting Music Majors, and they'd see the ones that are in the program out, letting us take all the classes we need.  

So I would be fine.

And... recently I discovered that... they could possibly be cutting all Music Majors at the end of... this semester.

It's a toss up - but I won't find out until about April whether or not I'm going to have to change my major to something I hate.

I considered switched colleges, just jumping into the college I intended on transferring too.  However, as a Music Major, I would have to audition.  And if my college doesn't let me finish all my classes, there's no way I could -

...

And even if I passed the audition, if I switched to a different college, I'd - I'd lose my scholarship.  And I can't afford that.

I - I'm just so upset that I have such little control over my future.

Because it's that simple.  If they decided to cut music majors at the end of a semester, my small fragment of a life plan is shattered.

And on top of this near-twenties-life-crisis, I just got a D+ on my English paper.

-_-

And considering that the D+ Paper is the only grade I had at progress report, I am now - technically - failing English.

-_-

And on top of all this 

- sorry boys - 

I'm on my period.

Which would be fine... except I've had my period for the past 3 weeks straight.

*FACEPLANTS INTO CONCRETE*

MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.

WHY.

WHYYYY.

Well thanks for listening to my craziness.  I really needed this lol

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- Max :)