El Mañana (Murdoc x Reader x 2D)

All The Sin That I Feel is Unbearable

2D's POV

I was going to tell her. The girl I had been sleeping with for the past couple of months. I was going to tell her that I loved her, that I wanted to hold her, that I was willing to show a little bit of tenderness. The only problem that I had was Murdoc always flirting with her, either brushing her hair out of her eyes, his lips being puckered, or accidentally brushing his hands over her butt, and making me want to scream, and pull my hair out.

No one was to touch her like that. I was her protector. I hated seeing her so flustered around him, so vulnerable to his attack. I needed to protect her, to be there for her, to be less like a guardian and more like a night in shining armor. I craved for the moments where she looked to me for comfort, where she would latch onto my arm, and never let go. I would beg to my gods for the time where she would wrap her hands around my waist while she slept, and I would silently hold her, wanting her to feel good.

I know, it's bad. I should be letting her do her own things. Yet, here I am, slamming my head against the wall. I haven't been taking the pills. For her. I have been smoking, not when she was around. I was willing to change myself, no matter what. I held my head, and fell against the wall, my head still in my hands as I curled up in a ball. All of this stress was caused by him. The one that was seducing the one that I loved with my heart.

The one that was meant to be mine. I've heard about this in anime's. The love interest gets jealous. That must be what this is called. I can't imagine my life without her, and I wasn't going to let anyone take her away from me. This wasn't an obsession. I had to convince myself that this wasn't an obsession. That, from the bottom of my heart, I loved her. And, I had one fact that had popped up in my mind every time I had convinced myself I wasn't obsessed.

Murdoc would say something along the lines of, 'Obsession comes from the brain, you nitwit, and you don't have a brain'. Jokes on him, I could feel the feeling fluttering in my heart as she would smile, say my name, or even touch me on the arm. I sighed as my hand shook. I needed to ask her. Before I resorted to beating up Murdoc. He couldn't touch her if she was my girlfriend.

"Hey, Giraffe, you okay? I heard a thud." I could hear her voice, and my heart leaped with joy as I stood up, brushing my bangs away from eyes. I opened the door to see her, her eyes looking up at me. She was wearing one of my t-shirts, but not to hide anything. She had shirts on, which were barely visible because of the length of the shirt. She looked up at me, her smile dampening.

"What's wrong? Are you okay?" Her lips pouted at the edge. I couldn't help but notice them even more now. I quickly grabbed her arm, more urgently then gentle, and breathed slowly, not saying anything. I wasn't in control anymore, I knew that much. Or maybe I was. I looked down at her. I wanted to show her how much I loved her.

So, I leaned down, my face hovering just inches above hers as I pressed my lips gently against hers, not forcing anything, but letting them gently sit. And, I didn't know what she felt, but nervously fireworks had been coursing through me as she kissed back passionately, wrapping her arms around my shoulders, and me lightly pressing her against the wall. I had felt something different with her. Normally, I felt lust.

But this time, I felt love. My ears were buzzing, my heart was beating ever so faster, and I couldn't concentrate on anything. Only her. And, she had lived me back as she kissed me.

Noodle's POV

I walked around the corner, coffee cup in my hand, and one of my philosophy books in the other, excited to actually get to read today. Murdoc was out doing stuff, and 2D was nowhere to be seen. Maybe I could convince Y/N to read with me. Maybe she liked reading. I knew some about her, but not as much as he did.

Then, my eyes went wide as I saw something I was expecting to see, my coffee drop on the ground, and my book falling alongside it. 2D had her pinned to the wall, kissing her deeply, his hand tightly around her arm. I don't know if I was reading the situation wrong, but I immediately pushed him out of the way, and grabbed her from him, my other hand slapping 2D across the face.

"God, I can't trust you either! You are like a second Murdoc. I swear, 2D. No. No, no, no. Do you want me to get Russell involved in this? You know Murdoc will kick you out?" I began to lecture him as his face burned bright red. He was as bad as Murdoc was when it came to girls. Sure, he had the looks of a virgin, but he was as, well, seductive as Murdoc had been, despite his looks. Some girls digged no teeth, and messy hair.

"Noodle, it's not what it-"
"No, Y/N, I thought I could actually trust him sleeping with you, and not in a romantic way. I guess he must've gotten to you as well." I sadly looked at her, my eyebrows furrowing as I tapped my foot. 2D's eyes suddenly widened once more as he shook his head.

"Noodle, I didn't do that to her! I just kissed her, Noodle. That was it." He tried I explain to me, and I shook my head as I paced back and forth between them. I could see her begin to hide her face. I swear, I was going to hit 2D. Taking advantage of her, that wasn't cool. Not one bit. And I hoped that he knew that.

"Oh my god! Finally, when he has the balls to actually kiss me, it's interrupted! I'm a free person, I can do what I want! Just leave me be!" I turned around, and saw Y/N walked back into 2D's room, and slam the door shut behind her, the doorframe vibrating. Of course, in that moment, Murdoc must've come home, because I could see him carrying grocery bags, sunglasses over his eyes as he looked between the door and 2D.

"You idiot! You dipshit, dumbass, you waste of space! You fucking KISSED her? Why would you......?" Murdoc's face suddenly became bright red as he dropped the grocery bags, then quickly ran towards 2D, his hands gripping the edge of his collar as 2D shrink down, Murdoc's fist above 2D's head as he was about to strike, his teeth gritted.

That must've woken up the whole house, because I bumped into someone as soon as I backed up, and I looked up to see Russell, his eyes having bags under them, and him looking like he was about to beat someone up, him glaring at Murdoc. He walked over to both of them, and grabbed their heads, knocking them together as his eyes went wide in anger.

Then, that's when I heard it. Crying. I felt like a total asshole. I made her cry, and I didn't want to. I didn't know why I got so mad at 2D, he had done it to other girls. I shouldn't have gotten upset over this. But, here I was, in the most awkward situation I had been in a while. They were too busy yelling at each other to hear her cries, but I opened the door quietly, and crept in.

My heart twisted as I looked down at her. We were around the same height, but she was laying on the bed, her head in 2D's pillow. It hurt me to see her like this, all broken, and hurt. That was part of the reason I left. I was a leaver. A quitter. I didn't do anything to help, I was too scared to do anything.

So, I sat next to her, and lightly put my hand on her back, rubbing it in circular motions. "It's going to be okay." I whispered to her as I closed my eyes, my shoulders hunched as she continued to cry.

"I love him, Noodle. I love him with all of my heart. You don't understand. I would feel awkward if he didn't share the same feelings, and I just kissed him. I love him, and I'm scared. I haven't felt love like this, Noodle." She confided in me, trusting me with this information. I gave her a small smile as I sighed. I knew what it felt like to be in love.

And as I sat here, trying to comfort her, I couldn't help but notice as my crush on her grew smaller and smaller. She didn't love me.

She loved him.