My life

Personally

Hi this is the start of my journal of life, so far... This part of my book with be telling about my personal life...

   Does this ever happen to you? Do you feel what I feel? Do you ever feel like you just wanna stab yourself in a way to make you disappear? Well that's how I feel...

    Personally I've been blamed for things I've never done. Or I've hurt somebody and I don't notice it. I've hurt people before, but I've never noticed that I did. I didn't actually mean to hurt them.

      And when they feel hurt by me, they hurt me back. Do you think it's funny to be hurt? Or to see others get hurt?

       Personally I've been hurt a few times because of jealousy. Do you think jealousy is necessary in life? Why did God make such a thing called "Jealousy"?

      Sometimes jealousy makes you wanna fight, but you end up getting hurt at the end. Jealousy is a word that cannot be stopped. It's part of your life... Nothing can change the way I feel for something then the way you feel about it..

     I wanna cry in a corner and stay there as still as a rock till I shatter and break into pieces. I feel punched in the gut several times. I feel like I've been shot in the chest a thousand times. Yet nobody cares to save me. Death is the only word in my mind that calms me. A word that I cannot say because of my parents words. Why did God create things like this? Did I deserve to be hit like this?

Well it's hard to say, but some people I know hurt me and don't notice it...