I pressed the blade against my arm, dragging it across my delicate skin, breaking it. blood begins pouring out on the floor, leaving a small puddle. I picked up a rag, wrapping it around my arm, staring down at the transparent blood, I felt tears form in my eyes. I just sat in the bathroom for hours, hoping someday someone would hear my cries.
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"Bell! get up! School stars in a half hour!" My sister, Lena, called out.
Great, just what I need. I arose from my bed, remembering the night before. How did I end up on my bed? I walked over to the bathroom, and looked at myself in the mirror. Disgusted, I looked away. I noticed some blood marks on the floor, and quickly nealed down to clean it up. I fixed my makeup, then left the bathroom to grab a few bracelets that named my favorite bands, blessthefall, sleeping with sires, and a day to remember, to cover up my scars.
I walked outside, heading to school, walking as slow as possible so I wouldn't arive there early. once I got there, I breathed a sigh of relief knowing I wasn't early. I stepped inside, rummaged through my locker for a few minutes, getting the books I needed, and walked to my class. when I walked in everyone was looking at me, I felt my cheeks turn bright red.
"Ms. Lawley, you're late" He looked up at me, "Why?"
"Sorry" I said, quite coldy if you ask me, and took a seat all the way in the back of the class.
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It was now lunch time, and I was with my friends. Our lunch tables were circular, so we all sat in a circle. It was me, Annie, Danielle, and our very close guy friend, Kyle.
Kyle looked at me, "You alright? You seem upset"
Annie's head turned toward him, "She does everyday."
I looked at both of them, and put on my fakest smile, "Guys. I'm fine" lie, I thought to myself. "Just have a lot on my mind" and I did. a lot.
Annie nodded, and then continued to eat. I could feel Kyle's unease about the subject, I knew he wasn't going to let it go. I looked down, hoping school would end fast already.
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I was heading home, I knew what I was going to do, and that was go to sleep... I would sleep forever if I could, or die.. but I was too much of a coward to do that. so instead I hurt myself, it was my only relapse from pain. I went inside my house, no one was home. My sister probably didn't get back from work yet, or my mother.
I ran upstairs, dropping my bag on the floor. I went into my bathroom, grabbing the blade and the same towel that I hid in a box, cutting was an addiction of mine, I couldn't get away from it. even if I was having an okay day, which is rare. I ran the blade across my skin, creating a fresh new cut. I bit down on my lip hard, which caused blood. I continued to cut letting the blood run down. Another repeat of last night. I sat in the bathroom for hours and hours.
