My head was leaning against the draws under my bathroom sink, I had passed out. I heard a door slam, which quickly caused me to wake up. I shot up, oh no, I thought to myself. I searched around for something to clean the blood that was laying in front of me, I wiped it up and threw the rag and the blade in a draw, and walked out of the bathroom, in front of me was my sister.
"Did you just wake up or something?" She said, turning around to walk to her side of the room. We shared a room, my family wasn't that rick, so we couldn't afford a bigger house.
"I'm just tired" Very, very tired. Our door opened, it was my mother.
"Dinners ready" She announed.
"Be right down" Lena replied. I looked at my mother "Not hungry" I heard my mom sigh. "You haven't eaten my dinner in a while, bell." I smiled, I didn't like putting my mom through things like this. "I ate already. at Annies. No worries, I go there everyday after school while you're at work." She nodded, and left the room.
Lena left the room after her.
I quickly changed into something more comfortable, a long sleeve shirt and pajama pants, and got into bed, trying to fall asleep, but I couldn't. My thoughts kept me up at night. I thought about every little thing going wrong in my life, I felt tears fall. Not again. I continued thinking, I couldn't control my thoughts. They drove me insane, everything going on. It was dark outside, and in my room. complete silence. I could hear my soft cries. Why me? I thought. What have I done? I tossed and turned back and forth, trying to get comfortable, but I just couldn't. I eventually fell asleep.
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It was Saturday morning, I was woken up by a buzzing sound. My alarm clock. I didn't want to get up, I was so tired from being awake that whole time. I heard a knock at the door. "Who is it?" The door opened, it was Kyle. I jumped, "Kyle? what are you doing here?"
"Your mom let me in, I really need to talk to you." He sat down on my bed. I cringed, slightly uncomfortable.
"About what?" I asked. He looked at me. "You know what. Why have you been looking so depressed lately?" I sighed. Why does he care?
"I'm not! okay? I'm perfectly fine. I'm fine! Just stop!" I felt myself on the edge of tears. don't cry. don't cry, I thought.
"You're not! and I know it! We've been best friends for a long time! talk to me!" He shouted back. I stayed quite, then his eyes wondered somewhere. he looked at my arms. "W-what's that?" He pointed. The blood stain had went through my shirt.
"N-Nothing! Nothing, okay?" I managed to choke out. He wasn't buying it.
"No! lift up your sleeve, Bella"
"No! Who do you think you are? my mother? Leave me alone! Get out!" I yelled at him. I saw him coming toward me, I tried to push him away, but he was too strong.
He lifted up my sleeve, his eyes widened. "What did you do?!"
I bursted out into tears "WHY DIDN'T YOU LISTEN TO ME?!?!" I yelled. He just stood there in silence. My mother and sister ran it.
"Sweetie, what's wron-" My mom stopped short, staring at the scene in disbelief. She was afraid, she bursted out crying and ran by my side, hugging my tightly. "What did you do, isabella? why?" She cried. My sister stood there in shock, kyle walked out, slamming the door behind him.
I just cried and cried and cried, with my mom by my side.
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