A S H T O N
You finish making sandwiches for the boys, and pour drinks into the cups, ready to serve the heathens. You were about enter the room they were in when you heard them mention your name. You stand outside the room, near the threshold.
"How is {Y/N}?" Calum asked, and you smiled. He was always the one to ask how you were.
"She's been...ok." You hear him hesitate. What did he mean by "ok"? You listen closer.
"Ok? Why do you sound unsure?" Mike asked, reading your mind. You hear Ashton sigh.
"Her outlook on everything had been terrible. She's very judgmental and rags on everything. It's like I'm living with a grumpy old woman. She is nothing like Meghan." He complains. That was a low blow. Were you really that depressing?! The boys chuckle at the old woman joke then continue to joke about you. You felt tears spring up, but quickly push them down. He wanted happy? Oh, we was gonna get happy. You barge into the room with a vibrant smile and a skip in your step.
"Hey boys! I've got lunch here and brownies ready to be put in the oven! I love you guys so much!" You say, kissing Ash's cheek and skipping out. The boy stare quizzically at you, but don't question it. You wipe the smile off your face as you get in the kitchen. You put the brownies in the oven and think of ways to be happy.
M I C H A E L
You jump into the pool while the other boys splash each other with water. You were all laughing and joking around. Mikey's pool was the best, because it could heat itself, making it perfect for anytime of the month. You suddenly had the urge to pee. The lemonade hit you hard.
"Be back in a minute boys!" You say, hopping out of the pool. You rush inside and upstairs. You do your business and look at yourself in the mirror. The two piece you were wearing was looking great on you, and had to admit, you felt really confident. You head back outside, and see all the boys out of the pool. They all stood, facing away from you so you wanted to sneak up on them. They were conversing so you listened, being the nosy person you were.
"{Y/N}'s bod was looking good in the pool today." Luke said and you blushed. Only Luke could say something like that.
"I guess, but do you remember Emma's body? She was like a freaking goddess compared to {Y/N}." Michael countered. You felt any confidence you had, plummet to your toes. You weren't fat, but you definitely not on the toothpick side. Maybe you just needed to eat less and work out more. You made yourself promise to start instantly. You wanted to make yourself something Mikey would be proud of.
"Hey guys, I'm back." You say, walking back to the group. They all greet you, and Mikey kisses your head.
"Let's go swimming, yeah?" Ashton asked. All the boys agreed, but you declined, saying you weren't in the mood anymore, but happy to watch. You spent that time reflecting on how to make your figure like Emma's.
C A L U M
"Bye Calum, I love you." You say into the phone.
"Bye {Y/N}, I love you too." He said back, and you thought he had hung up, but you heard voices on the phone, so you listen.
"Was that {Y/N}?" Ashton asked. You hear rustling and some noise.
"Yeah." He said glumly.
"Isn't that like the third call today?" Ashton asked, making you listen even closer.
"Yes. God, she's so clingy. She's always calling and Skyping me. If I'm not talking to you guys, I'm talking to {Y/N}. I just need some alone time. Rita was never like this, she always knew when to back off." He said and you quickly ended it before he could say anything else.
You slammed your phone on your bed and yelled in frustration. Was it so horrible of you to miss your boyfriend?! Him being away for 6 months can make you miss him. If he said you were getting too clingy, you were gonna let him come to you.
L U K E
"Hurry up {Y/N}! We need to leave now!" Luke said, pulling you out into the crowd. You had a social anxiety problem, but you didn't tell Luke, because you felt you would slow him down. The hotel entrance was surrounded by crazy amounts of fans, and you were freaking out on the inside.
"I'm going to the car." You tell Luke, heading to the car while the band greeted fans. You hated being scared of crowds, because you loved the fans, and not meeting them also made you seem snotty and rude.
30 minutes later, after meeting 100+ fans, the boys shuffled in, and you guys were off to the concert hall. You arrived and headed to the dressing room while the boys went to sound check. After it was done, you head back stage and watch the boys goof off.
"Why did {Y/N} ditch us earlier?" Michael asked Luke as he strummed the strings on his guitar.
"I don't know, but it aggravates me. She doesn't even care about the fans. She runs off at the sight. I'm shocked she even came on tour with us. Penelope was always hanging with the fans." Luke said, messing with the microphone. You start to cry and head to the bathroom. It wasn't your fault you had a problem. If you stayed in a crowd too long, you were likely to pass out. It was safer to be alone. You spent an hour in the bathroom, not wanting to talk to anyone.
