I Will Protect You

Chapter 1 Regina's Secret (Regina)

‘I don’t want to talk about any of this anymore, why doesn’t anyone understand that?’ 

“I just can’t bare to talk about him anymore, Emma.  I know you’re just trying to help me with Robin’s death and all, but nothing is going to help.” I explain to her, starting to get frustrated with this whole thing.

“Regina, it’s going to be okay, just tell me what’s wrong.” She consoles me, and with that I know I am flustered as tears rolls down my cheek, making them glisten in the dull lighting of my office.

“I  can’t, it’s too hard for me. I miss him, I miss him, Emma, so much.” I sob as all my tears come pouring down my cheeks.

“It’s okay, Regina, I am here for you. I always am and always will be no matter what and that's a promise.” She responds in a comforting tone, but I have a feeling she’s being honest.

“Don’t make that promise, Emma.” I beg her, the tears that fell down my cheeks just seconds ago left red  marks down the side of my face and drenched the front of my shirt. They seemed to slowly begin to stop at hearing her promise.

I hear my office door open and someone walks in, but I’m not sure who it is yet. I turn to see and of course it’s one of the Charmings, no surprise there. I wipe away my tears and Snow walks in just as I am about to continue my conversation with Emma.

“Hey, mom” I hear Emma say in quite an upset tone, it’s almost  as if she is mad that her mother came.
“Oh hi, honey, I didn’t know you would be here. I came to talk to Regina.” She turns to me.

“How are you feeling?” Snow asks. I feel like she is pitying me since Robin died and I don't like it. Am I not supposed to be her stepmother and not the other way around?

“Hey, Snow, and I am fine, yeah, I’m fine. Did I mention I am fine?” I retorted, a little upset at her treating me like a child, but I realized I shouldn't have said it in such a redundant way.

“I know you’re upset and your heart is broken, but you just need to face this head on.” She encourages me, as if Robin had just broken up with me. He died for me after I specifically told him the first time we met not to get in my way, but yet he did, he got in my way, and it cost him his life.

The thing is, no matter how hard I try, I can’t stay mad at Robin. In his final act, he proved how much he loved me and that is something I will never be able to give back to him. At the same time this all started with Snow and her damn mouth, always sharing secrets that aren't hers to share.
“This would have never happened if you would have kept your mouth shut all those years ago.” My response accidentally came out more harsh than I intended.

“Regina I was only ten.” She says to me as if I don't remember the event that turned me into the Evil Queen in the first place.
“I dont c...”,
“Regina that's enough, Mom can you go? I would like to talk to Regina alone.” Emma cut me off before I could even finish my thought to Snow which was kind of rude but it showed she cared. I think.

“Okay, bye Regina.” She starts to walk back to the door she came through and as she is walking, I look back to the ground and realize I really need to do a wax job on this floor. It honestly is starting to look like a junkyard in here. Emma then starts to talk which takes me out of my train of thought.

“Sorry about her, she can get like that sometimes.” She says and I look up to see a slight smile. I don't have an answer so she continues.

“Regina we are alone again so please tell me what's wrong. I need to know so I can help you.”

‘I always wondered why she cared about me so much. She has saved me so many times ever since the first couple of weeks of knowing each other. I was so cruel to her and she put that all aside to save me from the stampede of idiots the day the curse broke. I know that she said that she was only doing it for Henry but at the same time I felt she was doing it for herself too.’

“Robin’s dead! How can you help with that?” I question her more harshly than planned.

“Calm down Regina, I’m only trying to help. I know that Robin’s gone but that's not all. I know you and I mean I really know you. I know when you are lying to me and you are. Are you forgetting my super power?” She asks me and to be honest I wasn’t too sure what to say at the moment.

‘Well, should I tell Emma my deepest secret? The one that I have kept from everyone for the last month. ‘  I ask myself.

I finally come to my decision. I’m going to tell her, I mean she has been asking me what’s wrong with me for 2 weeks. If I should tell anyone it should be her.

“Okay Emma, I will tell but you have to promise me that you can’t tell anyone. Not even Henry.”

“Of course, I promise.” She puts one hand up and places it over her heart. My God she is such a child, but it’s kind of cute. Wait what I am I saying, oh right.

“Emma I’m pregnant with Robin’s child”