Your Life (Discontinued)

Do you think I'm an idiot?

Time skip 4 months 

Petra's Pov 

Lukas almost every night goes off sometimes he says he's going to hangout with a friend but clearly it is a lie because everyone is in are big house is always here unless they are going to one of their towns so tonight I'm going to find out where he goes it's almost night anyway I followed him down town and watched him walk into the bar I felt sad and mad and so much more I ran home and locked my door and I wasn't going to open it until Jesse knocked and wanted to talk I opened up the door and she walked in I was in tears she wanted to know everything so I spilled I had nothing to hide anymore Lukas took the last straw so that was it I was alone and Jesse wants to help me so I'm letting her into my life I have nothing left to lose so I told her not just about Lukas going out to get drunk about my child and about well everything really after I was in tears that couldn't stop flooding out of my eyes.

Jesse told me to tell Lukas what's what I was scared to though he would know I followed him unless I tell someone told me that they saw him at the bar that was a damn good idea but Jesse told me not to lie because I would be a liar like him so I agreed and I promised not to lie about anything.

Time skip later that night when Lukas got home 

I saw Lukas walk into the building from the window in are room he was clearly drunk so I waited for him to come upstairs and when he did he looked shocked to see me still up but he ignored the fact that I could see he was drunk so I made small talk I started with where were you I was getting worried he just said out in town I spoke again just a little louder you were just out in town cause I thought you were heading over to your little house outside of town that's what you said Lukas seemed confused but said no I said I was going into town I was almost shouting you went to the bar didn't you it's clear that's where you went I was crying and shouting at the same time now Lukas tryed to speak but I cut him off and yelled you have been getting home after midnight for months don't you care about me or are baby I thought you cared about *sniff* so much more than drinking we're over you got it done threw I ran off in tears.

Jesse was getting ready for bed when she saw me crying I tryed to avoid her gaze because she would be worried but it was clear she already was I walked past her and layed down on the sofa crying some more I guess Olivia heard me to crap it's bad enough that I told one person but telling another I don't want to but their all going to find out eventually I saw a worried Jesse and a confused Olivia coming over both girls gave me a hug I felt a little bit better but hardly at all.

I just wanted to disappear but not die and not live and I hate the in-between so I just kept crying it definitely got my feelings out Jesse offered to let me stay in her old room that she just uses as storage for anything she isn't going to put in the treasure room.

I thanked her and walked over to the room it was a light purple colour I looked at the red bed Jesse smiled at me I didn't want to say anything cause I didn't feel very happy and I don't want to upset Jesse so I just layed down on the bed I felt like everything was hitting me at that moment I burst into tears again feeling weak I cried for about an hour Jesse just stayed with me trying desperately to calm me down Aiden came looking for Jesse the second he realized that it was not the time he tryed to walk away but Jesse didn't let him go I couldn't stop crying no matter what anyone did I wasn't going to stop Jesse said she had to go to bed but she would check in on me in the morning.

Time skip to the next morning 

I woke up and headed down stairs my face still has some tears on it probably cause I cried for a few hours after Jesse left I went and grabbed breakfast before heading out I went to the outskirts of town and sat down letting a cold gust of wind hit my face it was so refreshing I enjoyed the breeze cause it was pretty bad weather last year it's February 14th I believe that Lukas won't remember are fight last night because he was drunk I hate that I'm the only one who's going to think about it.

Jesse's Pov 

I got up and it was afternoon I ran down stairs to get breakfast after getting sick in the toilet I rubbed my stomach only a month and a half until me and Aiden's child will finally get to meet us I am so excited I have to find Petra first though because she wasn't in the room she was in last night I looked outside to see it's really nice out I still grabbed a blue sweater because it might be a little chilly I walked out if Petra was going anywhere it would be the outskirts of town.

Petra's Pov 

I looked around and saw Jesse walking over to me great I was enjoying being alone it let me clear my mind I made eye contact with Jesse before looking around again a small bit of me wanted to get up and run but I didn't I just stayed still Jesse sat down beside me and was silent I liked that.

Word count 1023 not bad I'm only going to post 1 chapter every Friday and Tuesday cause I'm going to be writing a different story as well so I'm going to get a whole bunch of chapters done and slowly post them so I better keep writing more chapters and more chapters and still more chapters I'm going to go crazy oh wait I already am crazy 

-Fallen 👩🏻‍💻