Different

Different 9

Damn that was fun!
Playing in the snow makes me feel great. I don't know why it pissed me off when the boys came? It's like this feeling that makes me feel this sort of disgust or jealousy towards them. I don't know what it is but I think it has something to do with what happened in the broom closet with Aria. I can't look at her or boys it must be because I hate them so much. Which is weird because I'm straight as a pole. Though I do like reading girlxgirl and boyxboy though I think my brother ruined boyxboy for me. I love my brother but I don't want him to share his gay feelings just yet because I want to be comfortable with all my friends so that if anyone is homophobic I can make sure they die. The situation with Aria is that I can't stop thinking about her, I'm getting flushed right now for a weird reason. I don't know but I think I either hate her with livid anger or....... never mind it's so not true. I really like Melodie. She's my best friend, but I accidentally said Aria's name instead of hers and... well she hit me. I know I shouldn't let her do that but I deserved it because I said the name of someone who has bullied her, her whole life.

Damn why is there so much drama between girls!?!
I want to find Aria, but what does that make me. I'm just a bitch that bullied her. But I'm getting this feeling and it hurts not seeing her. I will always be the one who continued her days of hurt. I feel like I destroyed her. Like I made her out to be something I wanted her to be. But I think I like her. But those words don't feel right, I think I love her. I know it's a strong word... but I do. Oh my god!! I love someone!! Not just someone ARIA!! I'm relieved. Wait. How do I tell her? She hates me. How do I approach her? She hates me. How can I be alone with her? She... she hates me. She doesn't want me.
Leila decided to make a plan to get Aria alone. It was easy. She just had to get her in a secluded room. She had to pretend that she was going to hurt her. It would work and she was going to tell her.
L: Aria! Come with me!
A: ugh fine...
In a big room very dark and just perfect.
A: it's so dark in here.
Leila took Aria's waist. She was so ready for this.
A/ Leila?
L: Aria it's not a secret anymore not to you anyway...
A: huh... HUH???
L: I love you Aria.
1 month earlier, after the Mario and Damien thing.
Another full day where I can't see her face, I have a childhood crush you see, she's a girl and she's beautiful. A year ago we lost contact, it's unfortunate because I was going to tell her my undying love for her this very day. You may have thought I was talking about Melodie or someone else but this girl was special. I knew she was special. She made me stop self- harming and she made me feel a part of this world. When she left I was alone again, though I did not self harm ever again I didn't want to see anyone for 10 months. 2 months ago we started school and it already  feels like I'm breaking. When I found out what her name was now I wanted to meet her. Then I realised who she was now and... we'll let me just say... she's Leila. I knew a few weeks after our first encounter and it sent a chill down my spine. Obviously I still love her but... do I want to? Maybe I should test her... let her torment me. Actually dress nicely to school... and maybe, just maybe she'll like me back. I'm sure it's worth the risk.
Back to present day.
A: wait... u... love... me?
L: yes and I can't keep away from you, I need to...
Aria pulled Leila in closer to her body. She tightly squeezed her waist, and smiled, a smile that made Leila's heart melt.
Ahhhhhh, what do I do now!! Do I kiss her? Do I laugh? Do.. do I? Agh! I need to kiss her. I want to kiss her.
Leila saw Aria's uncertainty and decided to close the gap between them. There was a sound but they ignored it as they passionately kissed. Aria pushed Leila to the wall and reached up her shirt...
A: shit!!
L: hm what's wrong? Oh why are the lights on?
A: more like why are people watching us?
Leila turned to see the whole class watching them intently, some taking notes others eating popcorn. She thought nothing could go worse, until Melodie stepped up.
M: so we have a new couple and aren't they perfect for each other. Firstly they're are both 100% gay, secondly they used to be my friends at one point and thirdly one is a fake the other is a traitor.
D: clapping wow what an inspiring idiotic speech. I have something to say! I am gay and I'm in love with Mario Vasquez.
M: WHAT THE FUCK! What is wrong with you. I know she's ur sister and all that jazz but she's a faggot. You don't have to put yourself under the bus for her. Date me and all your troubles will fly away.
D: ha. U make me sick. And not everyone is in love with fame bitch.
M: how dare...
M: wait! U... u love me?
M: I haven...
A: shut up Melodie let Mario speak.
D: yeah I guess I do...
M: ur not just kidding around right?
D: no! No why would u think that?
M: points at Melodie
M: don't get me involved.
D: what has she got to do with us?
M: um well...
A: oh I see. Mario told Melodie about his massive crush on you and cause she loves u Damien she started blackmailing him and saying that you hated him?
M: yeah that's exactly it. Nervously sarcastic
D: WTF!! What messed up shit did u go through to understand that?
A: ummm... I'd rather not say.
L: ur telling me!
A: I'm not so sure any of you would appreciate me after I say it so no sorry.
L: really...?leila slips Aria a note. Ive been wanting to show you this since last week.
Note: come to my house. I love you. I have a big surprise.
Aria turned red and suddenly had everyone's attention...