Why So Shy? (FINISHED!!)

Logan....I'm Not Ready Yet..

Until I felt his hands move from my waist to my inner thigh as he rubbed it softly. I pulled back from the kiss and looked into his eyes, they we filled with lust. This made me scared as I have never had any sexual content with anyone before. He moved his hand up, getting closer to my area as I pulled hid hand away. "Logan I'm not ready for this..im sorry.." I said and he said " I know princess that's why I'm helping you get ready for when this does happen " I blushed deeply at his words still looking into his lust filled eyes. I noticed somthing while I was looking in his eyes, when he gets this way the green in his eyes turn 3 shades darker. I pulled his face close to mine as I kissed him deeply and our lips moved in sync.  He pulled away and lifted me up as he sat on his bed leaning against his head board he put me on his lap facing him. I smiled and messed with his hair while he moved his hands up and down my body. "So princess what do you want to do now?"He asked me and I answered " wanna go to the beach? " he looked at me then at the time, it read 1:10 pm. He turned back to face me and said "sure if we hurry " and I stood up and put on my bathing suit right infrount of Logan just to tease him but my back was to his so all he seen was my butt. He came up behind me once I got my bathing suit on and put his hands around my waist and left millions of small kisses on my neck, as I tried to hide my moans I felt him pull me closer to him, now we are closer then ever before as He kept leaving kisses on my neck. I let out a small moan and he smiled against my skin and said " oh? Princess likes kisses?" He said and I blushed deeply and said " yes" and he stopped as he kept hugging me and finally said " can't we go to the beach tomorrow?  So we can cuddle and kiss for the rest of the day?" And I sighed then said " okay I guess since it's getting dark anyways" he smiled and picked me up as he layed down and put me ontop of him and not letting me change, I didn't really care tho all I wanted to do was be in his arms and no where else. To me I felt safe with Logan. He fell asleep and I was wide  awake thinking about how long Logan and me knew each other before this. School started about 6 months ago,I met Logan the first day I moved in,and I fell in love with him. Now look at me, in his arms and only his. I began to drift off finally around 10 but soon I felt a hard thing poke my leg, I blushed when I realized what it was and thought to myself " is Logan hard?". I shook it off and still went to sleep because to be honest, I was tired. The next morning I woken up to the smell of pancakes and Logan no where in sight. I got up and went downstairs to the kitchen after I changed into some sweat pants and Logans hoodie he gave me over my bra. Logan was cooking pandcakes,bacon,and eggs. Soon he realized I was there and said " wow, you look like a princess this morning baby" causing my cheeks to get hot and red then I sat on top of the counter beside where he was cooking and drank some orange juice out of the fridge. Once he was done cooking he walked to me and put his waist between my legs and hugged me tightly and I hugged back not wanting to let go. I kissed his cheek down to his neck then back up to his soft lips. Soon we was kissing, our lips moving in sync. I never wanted this to end burn it did, when his phone rang. He pulled back and looked at his phone, it read the words '❤lil sis❤' on it and I pulled back further and said, "go ahead baby..take it I'll be here eating I smiled and he gave me a quick peck on the lips and walked to the living room as I sat there, sad wanting him to come back and ate some of the food he made. He came back about 20 minuets later and rolled his eyes as he said " my sis insested she know who you was and I still didn't tell her tho" and I said " why?" And he answered "because she can meet you in person when she comes back Sunday today's only Wensday baby " he walked back to me and put his waist between my legs and held.me as I hugged him and I felt him stsrt to leave kisses in my neck again and I bit my lip as he did. He was teasing me, I can tease to. I smiled and brought his head up and brushed my lips on his, giving him a ghost kiss just to tease him. He wined and said " I want a kiss " and I said "maybe later" and winked at him as he wined. He hugged me tightly and his hands went up my shirt and rubbed my sides as I messed with his hair alittle. "Baby girl I want a kiss please" he wined more and I shook my head no as he kept pouting and wining. Later I still had not kisses him and he followed me everywhere like a lost puppy asking for kisses and I kept shaking my head no. Finally when I was cooking dinner he came up behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me close to him still pouting. I felt somthing wet drop on my shoulder, when I looked back he was crying and I turned around quickly and hugged him tightly as I asked " baby what's wrong!?" And he just shook his head know as he kept hugging me and all I wanted to do was keep him safe and hug him tightly. " Baby please tell me what's wrong" at this point I was on the verge of crying myself and he finally said " I wanted kisses baby, I thought you was mad at me" and I looked at him with tears in my eyes and kissed him deeply and passinotly then said " no baby I would never get mad at you" and he hugged my tightly and kissed me again as I kissed back. I felt him pull away and whisper in my ear..."baby, I love you" those words made shivers go down my back as I blushed when he  used the L word. No one had ever said they loved me and I said back " Baby, I love you to and smiled as I hugged him as tears began to fall down my face of joy knowing I found the one for me, until I seen his phone vibrate it said for the name 'my baby girl' then tears of sadness become to fall out of my eyes and I pulled away from Logan and and run upstairs crying thinking   "He lied, he don't love you, he is using you Kristina,  he lied, he don't love you, he is using you kristina" the words swormed in my head over and over again I locked myself in a room thst turned out to be his of course and I sat on the floor on the opposite side of the room, facing the door, and leaning against his bed as I brought my knees to my chest and cried like a baby. I herd Logan call from downstairs then finally call from outside of the rooms door. I got my stuff and ran downstairs passed Logan and to my house. It was raining and I ran inside and locked my door. My parents where on a business trip again so I was home alone. I ran into my room and locked the door I seen Logan on his bed with his head in his hand and I quickly shut the curtain so he would not see me. I cried all night not getting any sleep. I realized I was still wearing his hoodie I pulled it off of me and through it across the room. My phone had over 50 messages from Logan, I just ignored them. For the rest of spring break I ignored Logan everytime I went outside and when I seen he seen me I walked back inside and locked the door. Finally it was Sunday,  my parents came home and Logans family home. I didn't tell them what happened but just ignored the fact that Logan broke my heart into a million peices. Finally thst night I decided to take a look at Logans messages and they read " Kristina!? It's not what you think! I would never hurt you!" And more I'm sorrys and explaining what happened  but I just thou ht he could easily be lying. I thought about it and realized tomorrow was Monday and I had every class with Logan "great just what I need I said to myself and picked out a outfit then climbed in bed putting my phone on the charger and going to sleep. The next day was the day hi would have to face Logan, I didn't know if I could, he had broken me not just my heart but me, making me think he loved me. He didn't love me he lied and used me. I started to cry at that again. I finally fell asleep at 2 am thinking "Tomorrow I have to face Logan and deal with him all day"

WAOHHHH!! A lot happened in this chapter anyways thank you guys for reading this and I'll update tomorrow or sometime! I just want to say how much you guys have helped me by supporting me! Thank you all for reading and I will see you most likely tomorrow bye!! I love you all!!❤❤😕