He was the one that saved me

Is this what i want really?

I had ran. Ran and ran. When i finally stopped i notice i am at our school. And it is in the middle of the night. What am i doing? Who am i trying to prove? I fall on the ground on my knees as i feel a heavy weight on my heart. I feel how my throat starts to tighten and get try. I start shivering, but now over cold...I feel something wet going down my cheeks. I touch it to see, water. It's water, i am crying...crying because i am...am scared. Minutes pass as i cry and like in a second, it starts pouring rain. Hard. 

I get up and run under a roof. I collapse on the ground again. Why do i have this heavy weight on my heart? It hurts...i struggle to breath. I..i..i...

I look at my hands. They shake infront of me, red of the cold. I was soaking wet, trying to catch my breath and stop my crying but nothing seems to help. My phone buzzes but...i just can't take it. Why did i say yes? I barely get through my current school. I can't survive there, i can't. I need to say i can't go. I just can't. I currle up. I pull my legs against my chest and my head on my knees. 

I can't go, i can't. It will bring more pressure, i couldn't sleep, i should then study all night all day, always when i would have free time i would spend it on studying. I couldn't do that, i couldn't survive it. I couldn't. I can't do it. I need to tell no. 

"Finally I found you!" Yoongi's voice rings in my ears

 "Why were you even looking for me anyway?! I'm not important. You're a famous K-pop star so why should you care about me?" I finnaly take courage to ask

*Suga POV*

"This girl is stubborn."
Suga says in his mind.
"What am I going to do with her?"

*End POV*

Suga sits down next to me.

"I understand how you feel." He speaks slowly and softly

There was a long silent pause between Suga and me

"And look where I am now."

  "Are you trying to brag? But, really? You. Insecure. Panick Attack.... You(italic)? Hmm, I guess I should've seen the translations to Agust D."

"Yeah believe it or not I was like you. I don't want to go through the whole story." Suga leans his head on me.

"Hmm. Fine." I stand up and walk away. As i make my way towards the park, i start thinking. He has been like me...like me... how on earth did he survive? How did he win his deamons?
I wish i was free, as free as he is. I don't want to feel this pain anymore.
I just...
I sight as i step on the crossroad a hand yanks me back. And in matter of seconds i found myself hugging Yoongi while cars race past us.
I look up and notice him looking at me.

"You should be careful...i don't want to lose you" He whispers while still holding me

Did he... no... i am sure he didn't mean that...

"Thank you for saving me" I whisper to him

***Suga's POV***

"Yeah believe it or not I was like you. I don't want to go through the whole story."  I lean my head on her

"Hmm...fine" She gets up and starts walking.

I sight. I really do know where she is coming from. When you are that depressed and sucidal it is only matter of time when sometihing pushed you far enough that you snap yourself no matter what.
And it seems that what ever pushed her to the edge was something truly bad.

I just need to get through her and help her survive. But maybe i should first tell her about me, about how i was like her and how i survived. And sing her the song.

I look up from my legs and see something that scares me to my core. She is walking to the crossroad without looking the upcoming cars that are raching their way towards her.

I jump up from my seat and run in full speed towards her. My heart hammered in my chest, thinking that i won't make it on time, but i stop. I wrap my hand around her wrist and yank her into my arms. I hug her tight as cars race past us.

"You should be careful...i don't want to lose you" I whisper, while still holding her. I don't know if she heard but...i would like it if she heard it. And i truly mean it.

"Thank you for saving me" She whisper

She looks up at me. With those beautiful eyes of her that are full of sadness and darkness. Full of suffering...
I caress her cheek slowly as i look into thoes beautiful eyes

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A/N

I am so so so so sorry for making this chapter so short! I promise the next one will be really long.
Cross my heart hope to die

It is just that i am just super tired and my left side of my head hurts like hell. And i also have a lot unpacking to do still...but until next time

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