MISJUDGED

Narcissism

Being a guy with low self esteem throughout his teenage life, it's immensely hard to acquire confidence and start loving oneself. But after sheer struggle and constant self galvanizing late night mirror speeches, you are able to finally achieve it. For me it transpired quite soon but in the most complicated and defective way.
I am 21 now still in my college life, I have always been very active in my social life, always the centre of attraction for Many college group. Many such positive traits of mine make me feel overjoyed about myself, which made me more cautious about the things I do in lifee. From keeping a check on my hairstyle to dressing spectacular is all I can think of in the whole day. Passing by any mirrors or any reflective material for that instance and checking up on myself is something which I cant halt myself from doing. Prioritizing my uninterrupted struggle to maintain my personality over all other salient people and important things in my life. All this for shear appreciation for my perfection!, Just to avoid the judgements people pass on me!,just to feel motivated as much as I can?.
My past changed me, what i am today is because in the past people forced me to be what i am today. Not loving myself lead me to chop off my veins once in my dreaded past(THATS A STORY FOR LATER). That's the major reason I have Changed and started cherishing myself and my existence so much.
I used to hate my skin , hate my height, hate my face,hate my life. But situations taught me a thousand things and I got a million reason to love every single thing about myself.
And now when I stand In front of a mirror I can't stop admiring myself. Even if people jokingly mock me somehow I cant take it. Honestly you would find me managing my stupendous hairstyle rather than mourning in the midst of a funeral.That's how much self enamored I have become.

Though I ratiocinate it as one of the good things about me because only loving myself made me realize how much more important I am, but now people call me a narcissist (FYI a person who is earnestly admires himself the most is called a Narcissist). Like,now it doesn't matter to me that much cause now I am the only one who matters to me,but after a continuous reminder from people about my self love annoy me. I had altered my previous old detestable personality for the people, so that they recognize me admire me and now that I have changed and started admiring myself first,to get the same admiration from the people; and yet they still misjudge me.