Before:
•I ate
•I enjoyed
•Felt good
•Life went on
•Repeat
Now:
•I eat
•I enjoyed it
•Regretted it
•Stopped myself from self induced vomiting
•Cry either internally or externally
•Pretend nothing happened
•Repeat
It's shit you know.
At first feeling onto of the world, 100% body confident. Not letting a single comment bring you down.
It's all good until those comments start coming from those you love.
Then 100% goes to 12%.
Body confident goes to I fucking hate myself
And before you know it you a hunched over the toilet bowl Bringing back up the minimal food you are 2 minutes ago.
Everyone tells you,
"Well done for eating"
Or.
"I'm proud of you"
Well I don't care.
I might have eaten now but it's not staying where it is.
If I want to get a smaller waist I have to eat minimal food, to extortionate exercise and not be afraid when it comes to not eating.
It is going to make me feel better about myself anyway
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Issues
Non-FictionThis a book full of my pure, raw emotions. All true, personal experiences that I'd like to share with you. I wanted to get things off my chest and I have done that
