IV.
When did I love you most?
You already know that time,
You know the time I loved you the most.
That day was not the first time you made my heart beat like crazy, but there is something different by the way my heart was beating that day, it felt like you would take me away. To somewhere. To nowhere. To everywhere.
I was afraid, but ironically, I was curious too.
I was terrified but I felt safe because it's you.
You remember that day right?
I hope you do, please remember.
Because that was the first day I love you the most, then there were other times too.
You made me feel something I have never felt before. Something I knew that would consume me and it did. You were the most amazing thing that has happened in my life, that day I knew you can break me into a thousand pieces but I didn't care.
Your eyes were the loveliest that day, your hands burned my skin that went deep into my bones. The taste of your lips that made me insane, your scent that was engraved on my brain 'til the end of time.
Your bare skin to my bare skin feels like the end to all the chaos in the world, every inch we touch made me feel closer to heaven, each other's taste that won't fade in time, every move that didn't miss a beat.
My body, all of my being, belonged to you.
It belongs to you,
It will always belong to you.
You made me feel euphoric.
Every time I think about the time I love you the most, lesser words come to mind. You might think that's a bad thing but it's not. Few words cross my mind because even though I know and speak three languages, there is still no combination of words that can express how I feel.
And I think they will never exist because the way you made me feel and the way I love you is such an enormous feeling that I can never describe it. The feelings you gave me cannot be described by mere words, it can only be felt.
When I think of those times, all I can do is smile and wish that I had more time to love you more. I wished that we had spent more time together. That we should have thought of those times when we were having a rough patch, so we didn't let go of each other. If only we did maybe we would have held on more until the storm pass.
But it is still not too late, right? We're here, after all, those times and that's all that matters.
Hey, can you promise one thing?
Please, grant me this one wish this time.
Can you let me love you more than that?
Allow me to show you,
Let me make you feel it,
Let me love you more than I did that time.
