Summer time madness

This is a story about how a girls summer takes unexpected turns.

I had just got out of school 3 weeks ago. I turned 15 just 2 weeks ago. I wanna have fun this summer. This is the first summer that I will get to have a little bit of unsupervised fun. My bestfriend can drive and we are taking to boys. What could go wrong?

This isn't much of a story. This is about now my summer is not really how I thought it would go.

Jenna my bestfriend, was throwing a party. She said there was going to be food, music and not to mention boys. I got a little excited when she said guys were coming. Then she told me my crush (her cousin) Landon was going to be there. I got so clammy and nervous when she had told me that. Luckily I spent the night at her house. She has told me what and what not to talk about In front of him. Landon was about 5'9 or taller, black hair, brown eyes, plays football, built big. I was so excited to see him for the 1st time. Jenna helped me get dressed up for him.

"I brought just about 4 different outfits because I didn't know which one he would like." I said

"That's okay I'll pick one out while you finish strighing your hair, okay?" Jenna said

"Okay" I squealed.

"I'm just too excited for you Abbs!"

"Well I'm excited, nervous, and I feel like I'm about to puke."

"Why! It's just Landon!"

"It's just Landon for you! Because he is your cousin! For me it's a whole lot different!"

"I get what your sayin"

"Good!"

"Come in my room I picked out an outfit that will look just adorable on you!" She shrieked

"Calm your tits I'm coming!"

When I got into the room she had a cheetah top with an orangey pink color lace on the sides and back. And a pair of miss me shorts with lots of sparkle on the butt.

"So do you like it?!" She questioned me

"Well, yeah I do!"

"Do you really Abbi!?"

"Yes! I do! In fact I can't wait to wear it!"

The so called party wasn't what I thought it would have been. It was in her parents garage. The "music" was an iPod on an iHome. The food were two bags of off brand chips and two 2 litter bottle of soda. First off there were two guys there. Dillion and Justin. They were both in her class. I was texting Landon the entire time, waiting anxiously for him to come. Finally him and his friend Skylar showed up.

"Jenna you know how awkward I am! Can I just go inside?!"

"No way! Look at you Abbi! You look gorgeous and Landon is here now! Just go up to him and start small talk! It's not hard!"

"I can't do that! I can do that will anyone I want to! But if I like the person like how i like Landon. I just can't. I get afraid that I'll come off weird or annoying"

"Fine then I'll jut have him come to you"

"Jenna! Please don't! Stop"

She ended bringing him over to me. I could just feel my face getting as red as a tomato. My hands were getting clammy and I felt like I was gonna puke. He ended up coming up to me saying "hey" and then walked away. Through out the night he would sent me texts that said "you act like you like me a lot but then I'm actually around you and you don't talk to me?" Just things that made me feel bad. Justin and Dillion left so it was just Landon, Jenna, Skylar and I.

Her parents let us go to her room since there was only 4 of us. Landon and I flirted. But it just didn't feel right. I wanted to be with him, I wanted him. But something told me it wasn't right, or it just wasn't meant to be. It was 11:00 and it was time for them to leave. We were walking out the door to go back to the garage and her two dogs scared Skylar so be stopped everyone. It was dark and Landon was behind me. He had been walking with his hands on my hips. I really didn't think anything of it. Then while we were stopped by Skylar being scared by the dogs. Landon took the advantage of us being stopped. He spinned me around and kissed me. He has his hands on my hips while I had my hands around his neck. I noticed it got quiet so I put my hands on his chest and pushed him away. Of course both Skylar and Jenna were both staring at us. After that Skylar and Landon both left. I didn't talk to Landon at all the next day. I couldn't put my finger on it that wasn't right, why I couldn't like him. Then it hit me. He's so much different when I was snapchatting and texting him. He never showed anything more than his shoulders up. He was big. Width. He dressed and acted like a wigger too.