Do you ever feel like the whole world around you is falling apart ? You wake up one morning and you think to yourself why you are here ? What is today gonna bring me? You feel empty, you have many thoughts in your mind and yet you have none. You can stare at the ceiling in front of you for hours because it somehow gives you comfort. Not only do you know nothing is actually wrong but you want to feel bad, you want to feel lost. You know that you can be whoever you want to be and yet you feel no motivation whatsoever to even move, or smile or do anything else. But you see, sometimes you need these times. You need times where you don't care about anything, times where you just exist, reflect and where you don't have to smile just because everybody wants you to. It's all part of life for if you wouldn't have these moments of vulnerability, these moments where you cry for absolutely not reason, you wouldn't be experiencing life. God didnt promise us a sorrow free life, no, he promised suffering but he also reassured that he will be with you, alongside you all that time. He will never leave you nor forsake you.
One thing I have learned, it is that in life God lets you have those amazing moments but he also lets you have those awful lonely moments. Because he wants you to learn what it means to praise him in your pain, in your meaninglessness, in your vulnerability. Life has to have the crazy moments and it has to have the mundane moments. Because you will never appreciate God enough and experience his joy and happiness unless you are first broken before his feet. Deserving nothing but needing everything. Yet God is God and he sees you as his priced possession, he is jealous for you. He loves you with an everlasting love and despite what you might be feeling, sit still amd know that he is God.
Life needs to put you down so that you can rise up again. Because if life never puts you down how will you stand back up ? You see , it is necessary for you to fail in order for you to succeed. In your weakness you are strongest so boast in this weakness just as Paul did because God is most strongest there. So if there are those depressing moments where you don't feel like doing anything, where you feel like there is no meaning to life, no hope, nothing and yet it's comforting at the same time. When you feel like this, then don't think this is it. Don't think it will stay like this forever. Remember you need today so that you can appreciate tomorrow. God knows your heart. He is there with you and he knows your pain and he understands. He is waiting for you. He is always waiting for you to let him in. He will hide you in the shadow of his wings. Despite what you feel, he is greater than your feelings. He is the rock that you can rely on when you think you dont need him. When you think you wanna be left alone, he is in control and he has only the best intentions at heart. So take heed, Jesus has overcome the wolrd !
