Lovesick

Friendship

Days passed.
Every day, I rolled outside to see Jin. But I always forgot that he's not here anymore. I can't describe how much I love and miss him.

Once, I rolled outside as always.
I was sunken in thoughts and didn't really pay attention to the surroundings. Suddenly, I bumped into someone. He tripped back and fell on the floor.
''Hey, you should be careful! What if you fell back?! I would be too lazy to help you up.''
I slowly moved my head to the person's face. He has sharp, dark eyes. Blonde hair, bright skin.

''I'm horribly sorry sir!!!'', my face went red like a tomato. Darn it!! I should be more careful!

I noticed his outfit. He's wearing a white uniform with an ID attached. ''Min Yoongi'', I said out loud without knowing I was reading it out loud.
''Yeah my name is Min Yoongi, I'm the nurse here. Call me Yoongi.''

Yoongi?
I heard this name somewhere before.

Suddenly, I realized who Min Yoongi was.

He was my classmate in high school. We studied together and hung out together most of the time.

''Min Suga Genius Jjang Jjang man Bboong Bboong!!'' I screamed at him. He eyes widened. He stuttered: ''How do you know my nickname?!''
''Can't you remember me? It's me (y/n)!!'', I countered back.

''Holy Moly! (y/n)!! You look so different than I thought! And why are you sitting in a wheelchair?! What happened?!'', he heaped me with a lot of sentences.
This is very unusual. He doesn't really talk so much in one go. He must have changed a lot.

''Wow wow hold on Yoongs, it's nothing terrible. I just got into a car accident and now I can't walk anymore. I have to use the wheelchair now.'', I pacified him.
''B-but, won't you get tired of sitting in a wheelchair all the time?! Your arms, won't they start hurting if you always use them?!'', Yoongi asked again.
''Nono, it's fine. I'll get used to it.'', I replied to him.
He seemed really nervous. Something must have happened and I need to find out what has happened after our graduation.

''Let me take you to your room.'', Yoongi told me, took my wheelchair and started pushing it.
I got flustered. ''Y-Yongs, you don't have to. Don't you have more important work than taking me into my room?'', I asked him nervously.
''Don't worry (y/n), they will find another nurse to do the work.'', he said and stopped the wheelchair. He went through the halls until he disappeared from my sight. I wondered what he did without saying a word.

After some minutes, he came back and continued pushing my wheelchair. ''What did you do Yoongs?'', I asked him curiously. He answered with a calm voice: ''I asked my colleague to do my work for a while.'' I blushed: '' Thanks, Yoongi, but I don't want to disturb your work.''

He shook his head and continued pushing.

We reached my door. He opened the door and pushed me towards my bed.
''Y-Yoongi, you really don't have to. I can get on my own. Thanks for your help'', I stuttered.
He said nothing and he lifted me up. I turned red again. Why does he take care of me so much?
He put me to bed and put a blanket over me.

''You know how much I missed you?'', he pouted and started coming closer. ''Y-Yoongs, w-what are you doing'', I asked him nervously. He never was so close to me.
He laid his arms around me and hugged me tightly. For a moment I forgot everything around me.

I didn't feel lonely. It was like a hole was filled.

But,

he is only one of my closest friends.

Nothing more.

What if he loves me?

I'm not brave enough to tell him the truth. Someone else stole my heart.

Jin.

''(y/n), can you answer me one question?'', he whispered. I feared the worst. ''Sure. Go ahead'', I said fearfully. ''I know I'm late, but will you be my girlfriend?'', he proposed to me.

As I predicted. I hugged him tighter. Tears came out. I couldn't express my feelings and started trembling.
''I...I am sorry Yoongi.'', I stuttered, ''I don't know how to say it. I don't want to hurt you. I appreciate it to have an amazing person like you, but I...
I love someone else.''

Silence.

He slowly took his arms away from me and wiped my tears.
''It's okay, It's my fault after all. I should have proposed earlier.'', Yoongi said desperately.
I couldn't let him broken like this. It was my fault aswell. I hurt him.
Immeadetly, I hugged him tightly, but he tried to escape. I didn't let go and hugged him tighter.

''Please listen to me Yoongi. We are best friends and we shall stay together, but not as a love affair. I wish I could help you to feel better.'', I reassured him, ''Please smile for me, I can't see you sad anymore.''

I let go of him and stared at his eyes.
He looked at my eyes and smiled: ''Thanks for everything, (y/n). I'll need some time to recover, but I'll take care of you till you can walk again. And something else. That's my promise.''

''Another question. May I know who your lover is?'', Yoongi asked curiously?
I blushed and responded: ''I met him some weeks ago. His name is Jin. But 2 weeks ago, I wanted to gift him a guitar for his birthday, but he wasn't here anymore. I'm afraid that something bad happened to him.'' I started sobbing uncontrollably.
''No no, he'll be fine. I'm sure.'', he smiled and patted my head.

Since then, Yoongi took care of me every day.

Even though I hurt his feelings, he still supported me. I'm thankful to have a grateful friend like him.

Yoongi.