It all started with a fan sign

Not an update

I'd lie and say sCHOOL is stressing me out. But it's my first week and since I'm still in primary school (according to the Australian ways) it's  easier, expectations are some what lower and we still get treated like kids. Mature kids.

It's the shit that's happening next year and I'm fucking scared. Like bRUHHH I KNOW,I HAVE WHOLE YEAR TO STILL BE TRATED LIKE A MATURE KID BUT DJJXI  WKWKSKS.

I'm starting high school next year and I constantly scare the shit outta myself about it. Since the catholic schools in SA are changing and sending year sevens off to high school like the rest of the nation. Fuck the public schools.

Btw no I'm not catholic, my religion is Hope world.

fucking sTREAM IT.

Annnddd I'm horrified because 

1. I have no confidence. Last year I got bullied n' shit and all my fucking confidence was drained. All the fucks (bOYS) In my class would sCREAM their asses if ted I touched tHEM. Imagine that. WOULD YOUR CONFIDENCE GET DRAINED? Some other shit like that and stuff. Calling my name a swear word and stuff, making retching sounds when I was near them. This one time I took off my glasses to clean them and two of the fucks were on the same table as me. I didn't choose to sit there the teacher assigns that shit. They pretended to vomit. CAN YOU SEE WHY I CIRED MYSELF TO SLEEP THAT ONE NIGHT?

Thanks to them, I have severe social issues and confidence issues.

2. Half the kids in my class plus the other class are going to the same school as me. Most of last years grade sevens are also I'm the same school. Those grade sevens were also shitheads to me. Not all but most.

The fucks that ruined my life are going.

I guess the only pro with this is that I'll have my friends there. Mia, Nancy and Nikki there, I might see Dallas when I go to learn viet, her school is rich and has a seperate department for language learning. Also to qualify you need to be a good student, speak two languages (English and whatever  else) and you'll also learn another language. Belynda is going to a expenisve ass 12,000+ a YEAR school. Better be getting a scholarship.

3.

In SA (South Australia, it's a state) you go to hs  in grade eight, and I'm assuming that (boi this deffs happenes) you get treated like a baby. Since I'll be a grade seven (idk why the fuck this scares me and stresses me out but it does) I'll get treated like a baby even more. I can't explain why this stresses me out, but it does. 

Imagine if everyone thinks your like eight or nine but really smart and skipped years BECUASE YO SO SHORTTT.

I spent an hour on Pinterest saving stuff for hs to help. Maybe two.

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I'm sorry if I don't update, my brain is retarded af and it does shit to itself and makes life worse for its outsides.

Blame school if you want, it's all related if you think about it.

I know life is hard but during high school, do me a favour and stay alive. If your struggling message me. If it's 3 am I'm probably be awake, ask for help.

okay now I'm scaring the shit outta myself by being worried about yout mental health.

fUCK

How the Australian ways work.

SA

Public schools:

Primary:

Reception to grade seven.

Reception is like the beginner shit. Basically aus grade 1. I'm too stupid to know if America and Canada have this.

High school:

Eight to twelve.

And catholic just moved grade sevens to high school.

I have no idea about the Christian schools.

There is no middle school.