VOLITION | H.S. AU

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***The steamy scene is found in my other book "EROS". In order to view the restricted chapter, follow me first then add it to your library. If you're not interested in reading sexual stuffs you can just proceed reading this "clean version" chapter.

-LISA-

I've been awake for hours now but I dare not make a single move for I am afraid to wake up the sleeping Don. Now that my mind is thinking rational, the realization sinks down in me. I feel utterly ashamed of myself for breaking the promise I made to myself. I didn't regret what happened last night. To be honest I feel whole again, being with him, in his arms the whole night.

It's just I feel like I'm losing a battle. I've fought my feelings for him since I believe he doesn't deserve it. After he used me for his own benefit and after he dragged me down to satisfy his revenge, I promised myself that he'll pay for it even if he's the father of my child.

But I'm still not giving in. Not yet. Giving in is not an option for now. I'm not only fighting for myself but for other people like me who have been abused and used by the likes of Harry.

I still have feelings for him, I can't deny that and I am also not blind that Harry is starting to care for me. The extent and reason for his care is still inexplicable, though the most plausible would be because I am just carrying his child, the future ruler of their clan. Other than that, I still have doubts that he truly cares for me because if he does, he wouldn't hurt me terribly before.

"You're just a good fuck."

I feel like my heart is being torn by pieces just by remembering those words that he said to me, but what he said to me last night was different and in contrast of the hurtful words he threw at me before. It did sound like he truly cares for me.

"I want to pleasure you, treat you like a queen you deserves to be. I want to give you that kind of pleasure that will erase all the fucked up things I've done to you. Give me that chance Lisa."

I bit my lip as I control the stupid smile that is forming on my face. God why am I so stupid? His words shouldn't affect me. He must have said that just so that I would give in and open my legs for him and I did. Not just once but four times.

I cringe, trying to put off the shame of me acting like a promiscuous woman.

My sudden movement causes him to shuffle from his sleep making me hold my breath. I am being spooned by him with his arms caging me from leaving the bed.

When I feel like he is back to his deep sleep, I begin to breath normally again.

A soft smile plays on my lips when I hear his soft snores playing like a calm melody to my ear. It's peaceful.

Everything as of the moment feels perfect. It feels normal to be in his arms and if only I can be selfish I don't want this to ever end.

I bite my lips when he suddenly shuffles again and I feel his body presses harder against mine. I try to shift my body away from him but it only results to more body contact.

My body stiffens when I feel his left arm that is under the weight of my body moves until his hand found my bare breasts.

He's awake.

The next thing that happened is the repeat of our last night escapade.

"That was fuc.king amazing." Harry exclaims as he breaths hard to catch his breath.

I can't agree more.

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I eat my breakfast with fervor. I am ultimately famished and the dishes they served are all mouthwatering and delish. I continue eating felicitiously my focus only on these delectable dishes when I hear him chuckle. I finally look up taking my eyes away from the food to see Harry staring at me amusingly.