Beautiful Catastrophe

Prologue

"What's wrong?"
I could feel his presence behind me.
He was close.
Too close.

"Alyssa.." he said my name.

"What?" I whispered.

I knew what he was doing.
He was trying to break down my walls.
He thought that if he could get me to tell him...
That everything would be fine.
I would go back to being happy again.
That i would smile endlessly.
Laugh non-stop.
I would never be sad again.

But that's not how it works.

I turn around to face him and find him closer than I thought he was.
He was so close I could smell the faint hint of mint from his toothpaste.
He was staring at me.
Waiting for me to answer...
To give him the satisfaction.
But i wasn't going to.
I didn't know him well enough to even tell him my childhood fear...I  knew he would laugh.

"Jesse...please...go back to what you were doing and forget that you saw me crying. Just go.." I wanted to yell at him for seeing me cry.
But I couldn't.
It wasn't his fault that I was crying.

"Alyssa you might as well just tell me. Because I will stay in this bathroom until you tell me. I don't care how many girls I scare when they come in here." He took another step towards me, and I took a step back.

"Why do you care??" I raised my voice.
I was trying not to cry again.

"Because I think you need me in your life..and you know it too."
He took my hand in his.

He was right.
I did need him.
Even if I didn't know him very well.

I looked up into his brown eyes.

Lord...please help me with this....because if he wants to stay in my life...then I'll let him.