If suicide had a day

The day?

If I could commit suicide what would be the reason for doing so? What led me to making this decision? Is it caused by the seasons? Did something happen today that made me feel a certain way? Could it have been because of what I or somebody did? Whatever the reason all I know is that today I shall commit suicide. Now the question is how would I go out? Would I overdose on some pills? Take a gun to my body? Slit my body with a knife? Fall off a building? Stand in front of oncoming traffic? Then there is the choice of hanging myself.

All of these questions would come to my mind and I wouldn't know which to take. I just want the easiest way to go. To get rid of whatever is bothering me. Another question comes to mind too. How would my demise affect my family. What would my friends think of this? As for most that I know who are truly suffering I know they wouldn't take this into thought and just end it right then and there. Though what if things got better for I or them? Would there really be a future for us to look forward to? What type of position would we be in if were to continue on? Would we have our own business or be working within one? What type of relationship would we have and with who? Would we like to have any children and if so how many? Where would we want to live? How many more friends would we make? What other difficulties would we face?

Though as I said those questions don't come to thought for the many who are suffering and just want everything to end. It's truly sad, and painful.