So basically this book is the product of my messed up life. I started to hate my life when I was about thirteen if I'm not mistaken, and the only reason was that because I wasn't prepared for it like my other age mates.
Everybody around me was living, they were experiencing, they were tasting, seeing, hearing and I can go on for hours and hours, in poor words they were having a good life. On the contrary, I was always indoors, guessing what the cool experiences felt like. After primary school, I was completely left alone with myself and I crawled slowly into what I later knew was defined as depression.
Eventually, I got used to my state of isolation and now I'm even addicted to it.
My childhood started as good and ended as ok, my family was there for me but I wasn't there for myself anymore. I lost track on the road and at a certain point, everything lost any sense.
Now I'm 19, I'm old enough to take my decision (according to the law) and I'm supposed to start building my own life, but I don't know how to do it.
All my life I was given notions by parents, teachers but I was never allowed to try.
I like to define my self like this:
"I feel as if I was in my car all this time but the ones driving were my parents, they showed me how to use the steering wheel, when to accelerate and when to use the brake. Then when we reached half the highway, they just left the car and expected me to drive at the same speed of the others.
I knew the basics but didn't have the experience, never had the opportunity to make a mistake of my own so now I'm on a highway. Everyone is driving fast and as for me, I'm left behind because I don't have what they have to DRIVE THE CAR."
This all "quote" is kind of self-explanatory. That is how I feel every day.
I'm now living one of the most important stages of my life, college. However I don't know how to face it, I'm not used to being independent.
More than five months have passed and the situation hasn't changed, but I learned a few things that I want to analyze and maybe use them to make sense of my messed life.
For everyone who is reading this: first of all thanks for the interest, and secondly If you feel that your story kind of matches please feel free to comment. I'm glad to read other stories, I like to consider it as part of me making new experiences and if I can I would try to help.
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