Like we used to.

Chapter 40

Next Day.

Amal's P.O.V

I sat up on my bed, I let out a yawn as I looked at Zabdiel.

His back turned to me looking ever so good, craving his touch ever so bad right now.

Zabdiel turned around as he was putting on his tshirt. "Go back to sleep love."

"I can't."

"But you seem really tired."Zabdiel said as he put his tshirt on. "Just close your eyes."

"How can I go sleep when you aren't here?"I said with a sigh as I looked at him. "Last night was the only night I've slept well so far."

He walked over to the bed, he sat down by me and took a hold of my hand. "I'm selfish I know because I haven't thought about you properly in all of this."Zabdiel said with a sigh giving my hand a little squeeze. "I'm sorry for that but there's only three months left for tour and I know it seems like forever but it'll be over faster then you know it."

My eyes brimmed with tears and nodded. "You are right, I'm just being so selfish and needy right now."

"You aren't."He said as he looked at me in such awe. "You need me and I'm not here for you, I'm sorry about that."

"Don't apologise about it. It's your dreams and I can't expect you to put them on hold for me."

"I wish I could."Zabdiel said with a sigh then kissed my forehead.

He pulled away, his forehead pressed against on mine. His eyes looked into mine.

"I'm sorry."He whispered then pressed his lips against my lips.

We kissed but something didn't feel right at that moment.

I pulled away from the kiss and looked at him. "I think we need to have breakfast at least."

"Sounds like a great idea."

I got up from the bed and turned around to him. "Coming?"

"I'm going to go to the bathroom and I'll be out after."

I nodded and walked out of my bedroom to see a passed out Erick and Chris on my living room floor and a passed out Joel on breakfast bar.

I couldn't help just laugh a little because Chris and Erick had their arms wrapped around each other and Joel bad Chris's glasses on which in my opinion suit Joel really well.

I walked over to the kitchen and pulled out the pans to wake them up, I walked over to Joel and whacked them right by him.

"What the fuck?"He screamed as he fell onto the kitchen floor making me laugh with his karate gestures he was doing.

I walked over to dumb and dumber, I stood at the top of them and whacked the pans together ever so loudly.

Erick rolled on his side, not caring of what sound was made he was in a deep slumber.

Chris opened his eyes and looked at me. "Seriously? The fucking pans?"

I nodded. "Yeah, why the fuck not?"

"You are loco."He said as he looked at me.

"Like you aren't."I said with a scoff. "Wake up otherwise you are gunna miss your flight."

"Now you care about me missing a flight?"Chris said as he cocked his head.

"Yeah I do especially when my rug is drowned in your sweat."

He smacked his lips together, he sat up on the rug then got up and looked at me. "Who's holding onto memories now?"He whispered then walked to the bathroom.