Somethings left Unsaid (Drarry)

Chapter 4 - Nightmares (Draco)

//Warnings : suicidal thoughts and self deprecation and skipping meals//

Draco came home from Tuileries Garden and he was very tired as he had this empty feeling eating him alive. He was just bearing hell like life for his mother. He bought a Coffee on his way back to hotel as he had been skipping his meals for quite a long time now. He dropped down on bed laying lifeless but suddenly he remembered about the email he sent to Harry. He stumbled across the bed to get the laptop and with shaking hands he switched on the laptop and to find a reply from Harry he was overwhelmed. He felt happy which was a feeling he felt in a long time.
As soon as he read the first word he had tears in his eyes. Harry called him Draco. He just couldn't believe that and when he was through with the mail he was crying and he sat down to calm himself finished his coffee as he was deciding what and how to reply this time.

Harry
How do i even start. . . You. . . You are being very kind to me. . . I am not used to this
How can i forget the Ms. Malkins' incident when i first saw you! Your glowing green eyes had something. . . Something so bravely distinct yet calming in them. . . And i wanted to be friends with you immediately but then i recognized you as the Famous Harry Potter and i immediately knew that we can't be friends because my Father. . . Well he raised me a certain way and wanted me to do what i was told and he never wanted me to be your friend :(
I know back then i was a bastared i hate myself still for that. . .

Oh my god. . . Potter you are actually asking me to be your friend. . . Why. . . why do you even want to be friends with me. . . I have hurt you and your friends so much. . .
As much as i want to say yes. . . I still feel guilty. . . I don't know whether i deserve it or not

Yeah! I guess we are in a kind same. . . Both having to live the ramifications of the war. . But were on different sides. . . You being right and better. . . Me being a no one on the wrong side
I had a strict Father. . . He punished me whenever I didn't act the way he wanted me to. . . I don't know about yours though just that you were raised with muggles. . . So tell me about it. . . Only if you want to?

Lets not talk about that maniac right now. . .

Yes i was having a nightmare. . . I made that quite clear didn't I. . . I saw my dad. . . He was torturing me for trying to be myself he told that I'm a shame on my family and i should die. . . Please can we not discuss this right now. . .

And about Weasely and Granger no matter how much i want to believe that they have forgiven me when. . ..when. . . I have done it all wrong harry. . . I called her mudblood and weasely a shame on purebloods. . . When i am not even worth being a shame on mudbloods

Rather than intrigued you seemed obsessed with me as whenever i looked at you. . . You were there already looking at me XD. . . You can confess that you had a crush on me. . . I won't tell anyone XD XD

Thank you Potter. . . But why are you being so modest to me. . . Well its helping so thank you. . . And yes i am trying. . . Trying to be better

Me and obsessed with *you*. . . Are you kidding me. . . But. . . Maybe. . . Who knows ;)

No Harry . . . No I don't. . . I don't deserve anything. . . I have done too much harm to many good people. . . I don't deserve to be happy or anything. . . Don't do this to me. . . You don't understand how it is to live with the burden of so many deaths which were caused by you. . .
I am sorry Harry. . . I actually forgot. . . I am sorry. . . Sorry. . . I know. . . I know that you. . . That you know how that feels. . . Yes may be we are same you and I

I am here in Paris for 2 months before joining st. Mungos. . . Oh BTW you also work there don't you. . .
And while we are talking about you how's Ginny. . . What happened. . . I heard that you both are not together anymore

More surprised at you then myself
Draco

PS : yes. . . I meant porn. . . And oohhh boy why do you have soo much interest in my porn choice. . . Well anyways i am into gay porn. . . And yes Potter i *do* delete my internet history

PPS : yes I do love green apples. . . Matter closed

PPPS : I am saying sorry to everyone to have a perfect closure to my life

As he sent hit. He felt as if he has found a friend he was always looking for. The someone. He felt stable and he ordered some pancakes he feel like eating after a long time. He took a long breath as he sat down to read Frankstine and waited for his pancakes and Harry's reply