I couldn't fall asleep on the plane. I just couldn't bring myself to sleep, knowing James' lifeless body was with me. I kept wishing he would walk up and sit next to me with that cocky smile on his face and say something like 'haha gotcha babe', but I knew that was never gonna happen. I simply sat in my seat, hugging my knees tightly to my chest in hopes that it would somehow hold me together. My body was filled with pain and another wave of tears would hit me as I remembered my last day with James again and again. Our last meal together, our last hug, our last kiss, our last picture, our last words to eachother..... I missed him so much. I thought of my conversation with the Chief before Paris. I told him I didn't want James involved. I told him that I could do it alone. If I had gone alone, it would be me riding in the coffin and James would still be alive. Suddenly I was filled with anger and hatred towards the Chief.
"THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!" I screamed at him.
My sudden outburst caused him to jump.
"What do you mean Roxy?" The Chief asked.
"I TOLD YOU I COULD DO IT ALONE! IF YOU HAD JUST LISTENED TO ME, HE WOULDN'T BE GONE! I WOULD BE DEAD AND NOT HIM! IT'S YOUR FAULT HE WAS EVEN IN PARIS! WHY CHIEF?! WHY COULDN'T I GO ALONE?!" I yelled.
"Roxanne. You know it wasn't safe enough for you to go alone. If it hadn't been for James, the other assassin probably would have killed you" Chief tried to reason with me calmly.
"EXACTLY MY POINT! I WOULD BE DEAD BY NOW AND HE WOULD BE ALIVE! YOU SHOULD HAVE LET ME GO ALONE" I shrieked.
"Roxanne. You and I both know that if you had died, James would have wanted revenge and he would have went after the guy that killed you. He would feel just like you do now. In pain at the loss of the one you love. He would have went after that guy and chances are he would have gotten killed too and you'd both be dead. James wouldn't want that. He always wanted you to live and be safe from harm, that's why he pushed you away from the bomb. He loved you enough to die for your safety" Chief explained.
"I would have died for him too....." I started to see Chief's reasoning, more tears welled up in my eyes.
"but you didn't. It is tragic that James had to die, but don't you think he would have wanted you to keep living your life?" Chief questioned.
"Yes..." I trailed off.
"That's what I thought too. Now our next step is to call his family and inform them of what has occured here. I'll call his mom" Chief stated.
"No.....I'll do it...it'll be better coming from me..." I said.
"You sure?" He asked.
"Yes. I'll talk to her" I told him.
"Okay, but remember....they don't know about assassins, so you have to lie about his death...." Chief trailed off.
"I know. I'll tell her he died in a car accident on his way home from work" I made up the lie.
"That sounds good, and tell them that the funeral is going to be in Arlington National Cemetary in Virginia. It's closer to your home" Chief stated.
"Okay, give me my phone please" I held out my hand.
Chief handed me my phone and I dialed James' mom. RING RING RING....RING RI-
"Hello?" I heard her voice and broke down.
"H-hi Anne..." I cried.
"Roxy? What's wrong dear?" She asked, conscerned.
"T-there's been a c-car accid-dent....James didn't m-make it" I managed to say through the sobbing.
