the girl in my class

Relapse

⚠️ Warning this chapter could upset people or trigger people remember your all perfect and this is just a book ⚠️
Sebs PoV

I walk home alone because Martha lives in the other direction to my flat. I'm walking my usual route I kind of feel happy today it's been really good to have someone to hang around with. I can see the usual group of guys lurking around in the alley way the ones that beat me up on my way home, I'm hoping they don't see me and I can go home safe but no they've seen me already. They start running towards me and I panic and freeze, they start punching me so hard I fall to the ground. Then they kicked me all over my ribs hurt so much I can feel blood dripping out of my foot where a piece of glass has pierced my skin. After a while they leave me alone I lay there motionless all the memories of them doing this to me flash through my head. Painfully I get up and walk home i live on my own because my mum overdosed and my dad left when i was born. I get back to my flat and go straight to the bathroom, tears streaming down my face I can't do this no more I hate myself, why was I born, I'm worthless, let me die, no one cares anyway. There's a razor at the side of the sink the voice in my head says 'do it nobody will miss you you too scared I know you like the pain'. I take the razor apart so I'm left with the blades I know I shouldn't but I do I sink the blade into my wrist again and again blood running down my arm. I draw on my skin with it as if my mind wasn't dark enough already. I drop the blade and sit on the bathroom floor propped up against the bath I watch the blood drip onto the floor.

I wake up in bed the next morning it's a Saturday so I'm off school. Wait how did I get into bed and how is there a bandage on my wrist, Surely I didn't do this all I can remember is sitting on the bathroom floor.........

I'm sorry guys it's upsetting