a new life

chapter six

"Are you okay?"

I looked at him as he stepped closer.

"I didn't mean to intimidate you by looking at you in that way, it's just that you have an amazing body. Sorry for putting it like that but it's the truth. You shouldn't hide it," he continues with a worried expression on his face.

I look shyly up at him. I thought he was disgusted by my body and it never even crossed my mind that he would like it.

"Oh," I reply and then I start laughing. It wasn't a giggle or anything, it was actual laughing. I hadn't laughed like that in a long time. Then he started laughing with me. We were cracking up so hard that we didn't notice Hannah walk in.

"Sorry to interrupt, but I'm leaving Sam," she says bluntly. She seemed bothered for some reason. She was still in her bikini and she looked amazing. Her hair was wet and combed back and she had little droplets of water pouring down her.

Our laughter died down and Sam peered over to her.

"Oh, bye babe," he reached over and kissed her. It was just a peck on the lips but for some reason I felt annoyed. Annoyed at Hannah for interrupting, annoyed at Sam for being kind to me. Also if he had a girlfriend, he shouldn't be complementing my body. That's wrong. I excuse myself and leave them alone.

I've never had a boyfriend, unless Cody from 3rd grade counts. He kissed me on the cheek and he thought I was pregnant. I've never really had the time for boyfriends. I've had several occasions where a boy tried to ask me out or even tried to kiss me but I always refused.

When I got outside again I saw Maddie and Zoë sitting on the edge of the pool, talking. I walked over and asked if I could sit. They seemed to be talking about some guy.

"We had such a good thing going though," Maddie said.

"Yeah right. You would get drunk, hook up and call it a night. To me that's not a good relationship, or a relationship at all," Zoë answered.

"What do you think Lucie?"

"Huh...oh yeah right um...I guess if you like him and he likes you..." I answer, baffled.

"Yeah true, but now it's over so it's pointless to even talk about it," Maddie says.

Then Zoë grabs me by the arm and yanks me into the pool. I scream and stare at them for a second. Then I take both their legs and pull them under with me. We start laughing and splashing each other. I realize that I'm in my bikini and immediately feel self conscious again. I realize that it's stupid as hell though because everyone seems to be dressed like me and no one is bothered at looking at me. I relax and continue having fun.

We stay at the party all day until Zoë drives me home. Maddie went home with a guy and Hannah left ages ago. I didn't see Sam again to say goodbye. After swapping phone numbers, I thank Zoë and say goodnight.

That night in bed I replay the whole day in my head. I had made a few friends. At least I think. I went to a party. Which I've never done before. I even had a sip of alcohol and for some reason it made me feel naughty but i'm a good way. I wasn't afraid to show my body. I was even feeling a little more confident since Sam's compliments. This day was so fun but it was so unlike the old me. I don't know if this is a good thing yet but it sure feels good. I haven't had a good day for at least a year now. Dad would be proud.