5 [Lost in Heaven]

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by mcdernityfailed

by mcdernityfailed

tw/ death, cancer, overall sadness.

•Bri's POV•
(woah. i gave geoff's girl a name for this chapter. shocking.)

I lay on Geoff's chest, on the hospital bed. He's been sick for a quite a while now, stage four leukaemia. His predicted three years got shortened to three days, now in the final stretch of three hours. I heard his heartbeat. It was significantly slower than most heartbeats tended to be.

"Geoff.."

"Yeah.."

"I love you." I said. I cupped his face gently. He was significantly paler than he was just yesterday. His once bright green eyes now dull. I knew this was it for him. I kissed him, it was a longer kiss than the ones we've shared recently. But not too long, as he still needed to breathe.

"I love you more, Bri. Promise me, that you'll be okay when I'm gone."

I started tearing up. I never thought of a life without Geoff. He was the only man I wanted to love, the only man I knew how to love.

"I cant promise that."

He held me tighter in his arms. His heart beat slowed down with every minute. Awsten entered the room, along with Otto. They both smiled faintly.

"I'm gonna miss you." Awsten chuckled softly, trying to hide the obvious pain of losing your best friend.

"Yeah. Who else is gonna be the dad of the band?" Otto said, shedding a tear. This brought me into a sob, Otto rarely cried.

They both walked towards the bed, and we shared a huge group hug. It lasted a while. I believe all four of us cried. I looked at his heart monitor, his pace slowing even more.

"I'm sorry.." Geoff cried slightly.

"Why the fuck are you sorry?!" Awsten replied softly, smiling slightly at Geoff, holding his hand."

"I didn't want this. I didn't want to get sick. I didn't want to cause this pain, I-"

I cut him off with a slight kiss, whipping the tears from the side of his face.
"This isn't your f-fault" I sobbed. Trying my best to smile.

His heartbeat slowed significantly. Fuck fuck fuck. This isnt the end. This can't be the end. Who's gonna kick my ass at Mario cart? Who's gonna hold me at night as I sleep? Who's gonna hold my hand as we walk to starbucks in the mornings? I don't want him to go. I don't want him to leave yet. He doesn't deserve this.

His heart monitor beeped loudly as Geoff stuggled for air.

"GET A DOCTOR. HE CANT BREATHE"
Me, Otto and Awsten screamed.

"GEOFF...BABY...PLEASE."

"Bri, y-you're g-gonna-a be ok-kay ..."

flatline.

The doctors rushed in, and pulled me off of him. I kissed his cheek one last time as they pulled his body out of the room. Awsten and Otto pulled me into a hug. I frantically sobbed into Awsten's chest. This was it.

"He's free now. Painless." Aws whispered and kissed my forehead. This only made me cry more. His last words replaying in my head.

I knew I wasn't gonna be okay.

I'll always love you, Geoff Wigington.

//an
FUCK THIS WAS BAD SORRY
UNEDITED AND VERY RUSHED