thoughts book

my depression

ok so where do I begin. maybe at the start duh .

Hi i'm abbigayle i'm 13 and I have quite the story for you only it's not about a little girl playing dress up, or with dolls. This is the story of why i'm like the way I am. It all started june 10th,2005 when my twin brother and I were born. I was born first then him 30 minutes later. we were very big for twins and my mom had us about a month early.our dad left before my brother was even born and he blamed me till he commited suicide. it happened not to long ago actually we were planning our 13th birthday and he thought about our dad because may ninth was his birthday but two days before our 12th birthday our dad overdosed on haroin . and I was in a mental hospital because I tried to commit suicide. I cut a lot back then and at times I still try or do and it hurts me so much because I don't have the support from my twin anymore so life has defanitly been hard for me.the reason we were how we were it was because when our dad was around he abused us and my mom's ex-boyfriend also abused us and our older brother. my twins name was Jacob " jake" for short and he was so harmless and couldn't hurt a fly even if it hurt him.and our brother is 15 but didn't care about us because he was gay and i'm trans and bi.i'm female to male so most people call me Dylan but they always jugde me when I say oh I'm trans . And a few days ago I started cutting again. I know you may ask why I'm posting this but it's a way for me to cope and I hope you can understand why I was gone for so long. But I'm trying to get back on track. Ily so please don't forget that.