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"Jimin no," were the words that I could muster out of my mouth.
The situation that I was now faced with, against my will, was making me feel uncomfortable. This was totally out of my comfort zone.
I only liked guys, not actually spoke with them in an intimate way.
And here I was, feeling like an absolute idiot, cause I couldn't even look at ONE of the crushes I had. Park Jimin.
Yes, I had a huge crush on Park Jimin AND Jeon Jungkook.
"But you agreed on going, when I texted you the other day. There's no backing out now."
"This is a new year's eve party for models!"
I was still flustered at the fact that Park Jimin took the effort to actually come over to my townhouse. I had lost track of time and didn't even realize that the new year's party had already arrived. Completely surprised for the grand event, I didn't want to go to the party anymore.
I was already an anti-social person, the fact that I even agreed to go to this was so not me. I think it was just in the spur of the moment, I decided to agree. I mean, Park Jimin texted me after ages.
I've known him for a while but it wasn't until the past year I started to develop feelings for him. I didn't talk to him much over the years, but now it seems more difficult since my heart begins to race every time I'm around him.
Jimin just shook his head in disapproval, "Yes, there will be models. But it isn't a party STRICTLY for models, I've already told you!" when jimin slightly raised his voice, I was a little taken aback. This wasn't what I expected.
"I'm sorry, I can't go." I tried to say as sternly as possible, but obviously it was a fail. First, I stared at the ground while saying the sentence, so that's already an indication that I was lying.
"What plans do you have anyway? Have you even gone to a new year's party before?"
I didn't have plans and No, never been to a new year's party, let alone...any party.Ouch :(
Opening my mouth to say something, I shut it, not knowing what to say. It hurt that Jimin had to low-key rub it in my face; yes, I'm a huge anti-social person, who finds environments like these 'not my thing'.
I've hated that about myself. I wanted to be outgoing, but it just gave me anxiety.
I've been invited multiple times in high school and even first two years of college by my social friend Kwon Hana, but that wasn't something I was into. Eventually she gave up, knowing she would get the same answer.
Time flew by over the years, work and school was my priority, and I had pushed all the fun aside.
Did I regret it?
Maybe.
Maybe just a little.
But, at this current moment, did I want to go to this party which I already know I will hate?
Absolutely not!
"Minah, you can't say no. Live a little will you?" Jimin was almost frustrated, having to reason with a girl like me. And what upset me the most, was the fact that he didn't acknowledge what he said previously, was a little hurtful.
Live a little? Wow.
But seriously, why did he want me to go to the party so badly?
How will it benefit me?
"Hana is still going right? Because if she isn't, I wont." I stated, keeping my stance. I deserved to make a decision of my own too.
"I was just about to ask you."
He didn't even know whether if she was going?
Oh...so he begs me to go, but not her?
"Well, I'll just call her right now." I swear if she ditches....
Ring....Ring....
"Hello?" Hana's voice chirped excitedly. I could hear the 'ticking sound' indicating she was using either the left or right signal.
She was driving.
"Hey Hana, are you going to the party?"
"Of course! I wouldn't miss it for the world! In fact, I got you a little something to wear for the party too."
Just great...
"Where are you?" I asked, quickly glancing at Jimin. He seemed to anticipate what I was going to say, which was slightly odd.
"I'm on my way actually. Give me 2 minutes."
"Perfect, see you soon." I breathed out, then hanging up the phone.
"So, she's coming right?" Jimin's eyes widened, almost seeing a slight hint of excitement.
"Yes. She is." I said in a monotone voice, licking my dry lips.
