i will always love you, even if it hurts

love begins

the next morning, jihoon finds himself looking for daniel. usually, daniel is the one who greets jihoon everytime he arrives at the office. but this time jihoon doesn't seem to find the older. he went to their pantry to get some coffee and water and there he sees daniel talking to somi, the prettiest of all his co-workers, they're giggling too much and they didn't even saw jihoon entered the pantry. when daniel finally notices him, jihoon said good morning to both of them but they only nod to jihoon and they continue to what they are doing, giggling, sometimes daniel touches somi's cheek and the other will just blush shyly. jihoon doesn't even know why daniel ignored him because as long as he remembered they spent the evening last night together happily and touchy, but now it seems like daniel doesn't know him. he knows that he doesn't have the right to be jealous, yes angry, maybe, bec. they've become close already since daniel transferred in their branch. but jihoon just ignored his annoyance and continue to work.

lunch time arrived and still daniel doesn't give a shit to talk to him or to ask him to eat. they usually eat together since they become close, but now, nothing. jihoon can't take it anymore he needs to talk to daniel and ask him what is his problem. he looks for daniel in the cafeteria but he's nowhere to be seen. he went to the rooftop where they spent the night together (and where jihoon had his first kiss, yes daniel is his 1st and he's a virgin). there he saw daniel standing by the rail looking handsome as ever "ok fuck get a hold of yourself, you need to talk to him". he approached daniel and slowly taps his shoulder "hey, ummm..is there a problem? i mean you're ignoring since this morning and i don't know if i've done something wrong, and if there is, i'm sor.." he wasn't able to finish what he wants to say, and then daniel suddenly grabs his shoulder and slams his lips to his, and confused what just happened, jihoon tried to push daniel but the older didn't even flinch a little but continue to kiss him roughly, not gentle like last night but rough, at first he's hesitant but what the hell, who am i to complain, jihoon thinks. and he slowly kisses back daniel, sucks his lower lip and the older asks for entrance and he easily open up to let daniel roam inside his mouth, and he let out a small moan and he feels all the heat in his body his cheek his lower part and they're not stopping. jihoon suddenly pushed daniel to grab some air. looking flushed and embarrassed he looks on the ground but daniel holds his chin up to meet his gaze.

"i'm not ignoring you jihoon. sorry if you felt that way, i'm just so confused and overwhelmed about my feelings for you now. yes i had girlfriends, only had 2 ex-girlfriends but this is my 1st time to be attracted to..my same gender..i really like you jihoon, a lot"

"i really like you too daniel. i know you're overwhelmed, but we can take it slow, ok. and to be honest..ummm..you're also my first"

daniel's eyes widens and he doesn't expect jihoon to be..ummm..virgin. because damn, he's way beautiful to all his ex-girlfriends and there something in the younger's eyes that keeps him wanting more, it's like a magnet or gravity that pulls you to his world.

"i have had crushes, guys and girls but only upto that. i also had a lot of admirers but i didn't show interest. and you're the first guy that i'm really attracted to so can we try?"

with this daniel's eyes sparkled and he smiles at jihoon. "yes we can try"

they go back to their desk with swollen lips and bit disheveled hair.