amaryllis ; joohyuk

chapter two.

it's been three months. three months of this neverending hell. these flowers corrupt my body, i can barely breathe when i'm around him, literally. the crazy thing is, i'm not the only one struggling with this. ever since that day i fell for him, it's been happening to several others, many whom i go to school with.

this fucking sucks.

every day i awake, i have a euphoric feeling of happiness, but at the same time absolutely miserable. the pain has overtaken me and i can't sleep.

his presence gives me warmth, but my heart is completely blinded and suffocated by his beauty. i spend half my nights in the bathroom, my throat filling with petals and escape out my mouth. my heart feeling torn, like an old rug. i hide away my emotions and end up with muffled coughs, i can feel the petals scratching my throat,

and i can't do anything about it

my alarm clock buzzes and i open my eyes, awake and alert. almost instantaneously, i get a text from jooheon.

'good morning bud! want to meet up at the coffee shop this morning? thought it would be nice to hang out, and i also need help with chemistry homework lol. oh, and don't worry, i'll pay! :)' the message read.

i respond, 'sounds good! i'll be there in 10.'

this will be yet another day spent in my bathroom, coughing up flower petals.

love hurts.