Innocence lost | Dave Franco

| 01. introductions

I'm going to introduce myself to you guys.

My name is Chloe Harrison.

I'm 17 years old and I live with my mom and my older sister in Palo Alto.

What can I add about me?

Truth is, my life is pretty uninteresting. And I'm not proud of it.

All I do is going to school and sometimes going out with my group of friends: Ashley, Jessica and Lauren. I love them.

"Damn Chloe, at least I'm not fucking boring like you" yap, those were the words my sister said to me during a fight we once had. Although it hurts, I have to admit, it's true.

I know that all the other people my age frequently go out at night, go to parties... But I don't know. I just feel better at home, in my own world. Guess I'm just a quiet person.

I had a boyfriend one year ago, not a big deal. He was just a stupid kid as the most of the guys my age are. I can't relate to them. I feel like they are too immature. I don't want to generalize, obviously not ALL of them. But unfortunately the ones who come into my life are.

Something that embarrasses me and I definitely want to change as soon as possible is the fact that I'm still a virgin. All my friends are having sex since they are 15 years old. I just want to take this weight off of my shoulders. This isn't the only thing I want to change, I also want to change the fact I never got into a nightclub.

Summer vacations just started and it's the right time, I don't want to wait no more.

I promised my friends I would go out with them tonight and visit a nightclub.

I won't lie, I'm very anxious about this. On one hand I really want to go out, and finally cut loose and live my life. On the other hand, it's so scary to get out of my comfort zone.

It's 11pm and Ashley is already waiting me outside in her car with Jessica and Lauren. I put my heels on, check one last time my makeup and hair and leave my house.

"Holly shit Chloe, you look stunning! You're going to steal all the guy's attention from me!" Ashley said and pouted.

We giggled together.

"Shut up Ash." I said smiling, feeling nervous at the idea of having guys staring at me or even appreciating me. It's just too uncomfortable for me. "You know you always look good" I said.

"You look hot sis!" Lauren shouted from the car, and I laughed.

"Thank you girls, I tried my best, I really did" I said. "You look hot as well, you always do." I grinned.

Today, for the very first time, I looked in the mirror and found myself pretty and attractive. The dress fits me perfectly and this makeup really enhance my beauty.

I've always had a low self esteem. I guess that's also one of the reasons why I never was in a serious relationship or never had sex, I'm too insecure to show my body to any guy. And I'm also scared of falling deeply in love with somebody, and then get hurt and broken. We all are, right? But it doesn't stop anyone. For me, it really blocks me. I prefer my safe zone.

I think the reason I am like this is my dad, also because that's what my therapist told me when I was younger. I shouldn't even be calling him "dad", he never was a father to me.
I'm going to tell you all about this subject later, I feel like now it's not the right time. I really don't want to ruin my night.

Ashley started driving.

We are making our way to the nightclub and I'm freaking out, wish me luck guys.

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