What a random life...

Crush

Hello. This is XxLandxX, and nobody cares.

Have you ever had this life, called a boring life? Well, I do. There's no drama going on in my life, my friends are now going through random drama. A few classmates are going through drama, but what about me? I don't know, my life is boring because of me and my normal life indoors. I'm the type of person that would love to stay inside the house all the time. 

Not everybody has their first crush.

I would remember the time I had a crush. It was in Year 6.

I was so stupid back then, I just want to slap myself in the face over and over again.

I'm not even smart and yet people think I am.

Because ''Asians are smart''. I'm freaking Thai and that's Asian.

I was born on Australia out of a Thai mother's hole. Looks like some Asian Genes failed me.

I had a crush on two boys. I'll call them Boy 1 and Boy 2.

My first crush was Boy 1, and then I had another crush on Boy 2.

I would remember the time I stared into Boy 2's eyes. I could feel my heart beating fast, and my entire body melting. But unfortunately, he didn't like me back.

I remember it was during Art, when I sat with him and another classmate. She asked him a question that included me - I couldn't remember - and his answer... wasn't the best.

Of course I didn't confess to him, or tried my best to let him know that I like him through actions. I kept those feelings inside me. I don't think I really cared much, I felt heart-broken though - but I don't think I was heart-broken. Weird right?

Next was when I hung out with a classmate, who's still my classmate this year. It's been 6 years, and I don't think we knew each other well.

Boy 1 approached me along with his friends, and after that I had a crush on him. Was it love at first sight? Or not?

I have memory problems, I can't even remember my childhood and my past.

Both of my crushes are my classmates and I would stare at them at random times.

If I had to pick Boy 1 or Boy 2, it had to be Boy 1.

Unfortunately, Boy 1 now is in a different life at a different school.

Boy 2 and I go to the same High School. I still had a crush on him, and he sometimes talks to me.

But, then I was told - he was an asshole.

He dated multiple girls and the relationship didn't last long.

He even dated one of my best friends' friend, and they both didn't last long. She was heart-broken.

I moved on and now I'm married to my own computer.

Boy 1 is out of my league and Boy 2 became a teenager version of Justin Bieber, a freaking asshole.

Readers from random places, this is XxLandxX preparing to log off the internet.

I'll come back later.