Harry Styles
Dont you ever get that feeling of Hysteria.Just freaking out because everything goes wrong?Do you wish you could have a savior.Someone to be there to hear your crys.
Sometimes I just wish I could be born into another family or just not born at all.These times in life we learn to try,with one intention of learning how and when we"ll die.
Having your mother walk out on you and your father at only age 6,you would think you'd be strong enough.But thats a lie.Getting kicked around by your own father makes you feel weak and small.Maybe thats why I take my anger out on others just to satisfy myself.Hurting others helps me feel more powerfull,stronger.Through strength in self we become Something more than they can be.
We are young and we are strong.
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Waking up in the morning was a drag.I didnt want this day to come.I just wanted to sleep and never wake up.People may think I have it all.I party,Im popular,people dont want to mess with me,I have girls and teachers crawling up my ass because of my boyish charm.Fuck that.If they knew the half of it.If they knew that my mom walked out on me and my dad when I was only 6.If they knew I was abused by my dad every night when I got home and he was piss drunk or even sober sometimes.If they knew that shit they would feel sorry for me.I dont need the fucking pitty party.
Looking at myself in the mirror I looked like a wreck.New formed bruises on my stomach all the way down to my legs.Scratch marks and black eyes on my face.Its not a pretty site.I wish I could have someone to cry to when I feel alone.I wish I could just run as far away as possible.Not knowing where Im going just anywhere but here.A little voice in my head tells me I should just do it.But then again I would have people calling my ass 24/7 wondering where I am.I know for a fact Louis would think Im dead within 30 minutes of not responding to his texts.
Walking into school I had people giving me strange looks when I didnt greet them or high-five them.Girls were wining like little girls for not noticing them.Selfish dicks.Just keep your head down Styles maybe they wont notice."Hey Styles where you been."Louis said."Erm...no where...just got to school."I said.Louis just shrugs it off and says"Well anyways lets get to class before we get detention.""Uhm...Ill meet up with you in a second guys."I said."Okay."He said as he ran off.I lean back into the lockers sliding down till I hit the floor putting my face into my hands wanting to cry.What the fuck have I ever done to deserve this?I thought to myself.As I sat there in silence I hear the last bell ring I cursed under my breathe and ran to my 1st period.
Walking in late was my specialty.Charming the teacher was just a bonus to get me out of detention.But today I could care less about any of that.Give me detention you old hag.As I walk in people snap their eyes from the board to me."Why are you so late Mr.Styles?"the teacher said.I just ignore her and walk to my seat ignoring the little comments.I dont even bother giving that Malik kid that little devilish smile I usually give him.I just sit in my seat and put my head down till the end of the period.
Finally as the bell rang I rushed to the bathroom that rarely anyone ever uses hoping to just get away from everything.As I walk in I go straight to the sink and splash some water on my face in hopes that will work.Thats only in movies though.I just stand there looking at my reflection.Why did you have to be born.Why did she just leave us like that.Why does he hurt me like he does.Why do I hurt people like I do.I thought to myself.
As Im lost in my thoughts I didnt notice that somebody had walked in.It snapped me out of my thoughts and I look over to see him.Im not in the mood to deal with this shit.
