Outsider

It Shouldn't Hurt This Much

I was now sitting alone in my room thinking and listening to Boom Clap, from The Fault In Our Stars and yes I cried so hard in the theaters.

Boom clap

The sound of my heart

The beat goes on and on and on and

I couldn't help but think of Harry. He was no Augustus Waters. I groaned and looked at my clock that read 9:36 pm. I should shower for school which I am not going to ditch tomorrow.

***

I woke up at 5 on the dot and went to my closet for clothes. I put on ripped denim skinnies and a black tanktop with black hightop converse. I straightened my hair and did my makeup to perfection. I got in my car and turned on Boom Clap again because I'm pretty addicted to it. (i really am LOL) I sang along until I got to school, I unplugged my phone and put it in my back pocket as I walked to my locker. I opened it and Harry spun me around.

"Hello love." He smirked at me. "I'm busy Harry."

I turned around to my locker again as he stood behind me with his hands on my waist. The bell rang and I tried to pull out of his grasp but once again I couldn't. "Don't wanna ditch huh?" He jokingly asked and I nodded and walked away. I didn't look back because it would look like I care.

You do care.

My inner voice taunted me but I pushed it to the back of my mind as I walked into my first hour. After a thirty minute rant from Mr. George about how 'rude' we were, a worksheet was assigned for the last half hour of class.

I mentally groaned as Harry sat by me as I put my back to him as much as I would love to admire his beautiful face. What? No you really don't. No you want to look at it and kiss his plump lips you whore. I'm really starting to think my conscience is a total bitch.

"Did I do something wrong?" Harry whispered to me. 'Yes,' I thought, 'you totally messed up my emotions.' But instead of letting him feel the pleasure of hearing that I ignored him.

Before I knew what was happening he completely turned my chair to face him. I glared at him and turned it around again and working on my work.

***

It was now lunch and I sat under my tree just relaxing when my phone buzzed.

From unknown:

Hey beautiful;) xx

To unknown:

Umm who is this?

From unknown:

Oh yeah it's Niall:)

To Niall:

Oh! Hey Niall whatsup?

From Niall:

Just coming to pick you up from school, you?

What?! Just then Niall popped out of nowhere and scared the shit out of me.

"Jesus Niall! Don't ever do that again!" I yelled at him as he wiped tears of laughter from his eyes.

"Whatever lighten up Eva," he said jokingly, "let's go grab some lunch, yeah?" His irish accent mesmerizing me and all I could do was nod. He chuckled and took my hand, lacing his fingers with mine. I awkwardly looked at our hands.

"Too much?" He nervously asked, about to pull away. "No it's cool." I laughed at how cute he was and he cheekily grinned. He opened the passenger door for me, like Harry always has. Stop thinking of Harry! I shook him from my mind and focused on the beautiful irish boy before me.