Angst.4:00 a.m. The annoying buzzing of your phone woke you up. You hated when you were woken up, especially since you were such a light sleeper. Rolling over, you reach for your phone on the opposite side of the bed. Checking the time you mentally cursed at whoever was texting you so early. "Why would anyone be up this early?", you mumbled to yourself. You opened the message.
Youngjae💕☺️
Hi, Jagiya... I miss you...
The fact that Youngjae was contacting you was understandable. Korea has a different time zone than the U.S .
Y/N💘😍
Hey, miss u too babe, but do u know what time it is here??
Youngjae💕😊
Yes... I'm sorry, but this couldn't wait.😔
You wondered what could be so important that he would risk waking you up so early in the morning.
Y/N💘😍
What could be soooo important that it can't wait until I'm done sleeping peacefully in my amazingly soft bed?🤔
Youngjae💕😊
I just got out of a meeting with JYP, he doesn't think I should travel to the states to see you this week. He says I should be focusing on the group rn and that if I continued to put you before important group projects we would be forced to break up and not speak to each other for a little over a year.
You didn't know how to reply. You already rarely got to speak to Youngjae and now you can't travel to see each other. It was the end of the world for you...
Y/N💘😍
What are we gonna do? This is terrible... how could he tell us that we can't see each other! How can he threaten our relationship like this? Everything with the group has been just fine! You HAVE been focused!
Your thoughts stopped.
Y/N💘😍
Everything has been fine with the group right?
No reply
Y/N💘😍
Youngjae, answer me!
Youngjae 💕😊
Things with the group have been... iffy, I guess...
Y/N💘😍
R u kidding me rn!!
Youngjae 💕😊
I'm sorry I didn't tell you... 😔😔
Y/N💘😍
What happened...
Youngjae 💕😊
Albums aren't selling like they used to, tickets for the tour weren't selling as much, Ahgases are leaving us...
Y/N💘😍
How could you not tell me something this bad has been happening? 😕😕
Youngjae 💕😊
I don't know... I guess I feel like I've been letting the company down, you as well, I don't know how I can fix it, but I really feel like I need to.
Y/N💘😍
Youngjae... you have never let me down and I am sure you never will. I hate the fact that you thought you could, I wish you would have told me. I wouldn't have pushed you so hard to come visit me, I can wait for you... your job is more important than seeing me, okay?
Youngjae 💕😊
What r u saying! My job will never, in a million years, come before you!
Y/N💘😍
Sometimes it's gonna have to, Youngjae...
Youngjae 💕😊
R u serious!?
Y/N💘😍
I'm not the only person you have to please, Youngjae! Millions of people look up to you, they love you too! You can't focus on just me, your fans need you as well.
Youngjae 💕😊
You may be right, but I guarantee you none of them love me as much as you do... they don't need me like you. I'm your boyfriend remember, I should always be there for you. But you rarely ever even get to see my face, or hold my hand, or hear my voice... or kiss me. It's like I'm imaginary or something. It's different with Ahgase... they always see me around Korea and get to say hi or they watch me on stage. They even get to talk to me after. You can barely touch me. We've been together forever and it's like we've never even met. I hate it and I'm sure you do too, no matter how much you try to hide it...
It was true, you did hate not being able to actually be with him. It killed you everyday not waking up to him or seeing him smile at you. You tried your hardest to hide it and not be selfish, but it wasn't working anymore. He figured you out and now you realized he had been doing the same thing this whole time. You were too tired to talk now.
Y/N💘😍
I've got to go now, goodbye
Once you saw the message was sent, you powered your phone all the way off and laid in your bed staring at the ceiling. A single tear falling from your right eye.
~To Be Continued~
