Tom Holland imagines 😍💓

PTSD (P.P)

A/n:This Imagine will be filled with fluff and lots of sadness (maybe self harm maybe not) so if you feel uncomfortable with it I highly suggest you don't read this thank you❤️~Hollyquinn7

P.s: this is also a song Imagine!

Your point of view

Everywhere I went I always had a my bow on me I never had it leave my side. Expect when I was at school I always kept my pocket knife on hand. Being the daughter of Hawkeye is fun but there's Perks and then there's the flaws.

Skies are crying, I am watching Catching teardrops in my hands Only silence, as it's ending....

I have Post Traumatic stress disorder a stress related illness that was caused by none other then Ultron and his gang of robots. Let's just say I almost died.....

Like we never had a chance Do you have to make me feel like There's nothing left of me?

I walked into school one day with shaking hands as I held my books tight. Eyes were staring at me I kept my head down so I couldn't look back at them. "Hey Freak,"A voice says followed by laughter.

You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like I'm made of glass Like I'm made of paper

"Hey I was talking to you" The voice says again pushing me against the lockers. I felt the force of hitting the lockers enter my body oh boy did it hurt...

Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

"Leave me alone" I mumbled trying not to make eye contact with my bully who was Liz Allen not a big surprise really. "Aww poor y/n is so week she can barely speak, Do we need to call daddy aww that's so sad" Liz taunts then kicks me in the stomach.

As the smoke clears, I awaken And untangle you from me Would it make you, feel better To watch me while I bleed?

I laid on the floor in pain I couldn't move and my vision was blurry. "Y/n are you alright" A faint voice says I nodded as I tried my best to stand up.

All my windows still are broken But I'm standing on my feet

I collapsed into the persons arms "I'm okay I'm okay," I said repeatedly that's when I started to freak out.

You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like I'm made of glass Like I'm made of paper

I started having flashbacks of everything "make it stop" I mumbled under my breath. "y/n clam down there not here okay" the voice says again I knew right away it was peters voice. It was spider mans voice he was Tony's new recruit.

Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

I calmed down after a little bit I can't believe had to witness that it's very rarely I have an episode in school. "I wanna go home" I told Peter as I held onto his shirt. 

Go run, run, run I'm gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear... Yeah-oh, go run, run, run Yeah, it's a long way down But I am closer to the clouds up here

Peter smiled at me oh I loved that smile always Made my day brighter. "Let's get through most of the day first then I'll call your dad" Peter says I nodded as we walked to are first class thankfully we weren't late. 

You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like I'm made of glass Like I'm made of paper, oh-oh

The rolled on very slowly all I wanted to do was to go home. School was a living hell ptsd was a living nightmare....."three more classes Y/n then you can go home" i muttered to my self as I slowly ate my lunch.

Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground Like a skyscraper,

Once school ended I ran out of the school and ran for stark towers. Tears covered my face I felt triggered it hurt I had been a couple months clean but I had to break the promise....

like a skyscraper (Like a skyscraper) Like a skyscraper

My arms where now stained with blood many scars covered my arms. As I cleaned my self up I could hear someone calling my name it knew who it was...

"Y/n Open the damm door" Peter shouts it more sounded like a cry. "Y/N Y/M/N Barton open this door right now" my father shrieks

I opened the door using my powers hiding my arms behind my back. "What" I said trying not to cry.....

Peter looked at me with such sadness "why?".......

like a skyscraper......

A/n: Part 2? Yes or no?....