An Ocean of Lies in this Perfect World

Sudden Realization

My soul aches. The pain I feel from the news I received just so recently stings like salt on an open wound, cut by the person closes to you. The person you thought could be trusted with your life. The person who you once thought could not hurt a fly, hurts you as if you were the person they most hated in their lives. The pain, most will understand once in their life. This is nothing new. Not new to me, or anyone else in the world. How come this hurt so much though? I would have thought that this feeling would be easier to get over, but I couldn't be any more wrong. It feels as if a thousand sharp small knives penetrate my neck, causing breathing to be painful. My eyes as if waterfalls without end. My body trembles at the occurrence, but the thought of it brings every cell in my body to cry in a blind rage of anger. Words on this page cannot describe this miserable feeling in the deepest parts of my being. Nothing good comes without pain. Perhaps it is my time to feel pain after all the good times.

People always say that I should lighten up once in a while. I do lighten up every now and then, but unlike a lamp, inside I am darker than the dark side of the moon. My vision fails to interpret the scene in front of me. People passing by would not bat an eye, but would feel the same if they were where I stand. I feeling of dying hope, void of a resolution. A separation of sorts, one could say, but it feels like the world as it stands, is crumbling into pieces. The edges of my mind snapping into insanity, while reality sits on its beach chair mockingly, watching me suffer as it continues its day, as if this were a usual thing to see. The things around me, living their lives freely. People say this is freedom, but what is freedom? Living this life, caged down by expectations? Work for it, They say. If something goes bad, try again, They say. That's what They want you to do. Keep trying harder while they slave you away with their beliefs and standards. Nothing in this world is real, yet the feelings we have, the pain we feel, the impatience, the anger, these feelings. They are the most real thing there is in this artificial world of lies. The pain of losing an important job, the anger of a cheating lover, and the fear of the future that we don't know because of the decisions we make. These are the most real things in this world of illusions, and lies. Nobody on this false earth should be trusted, because nobody is more sincere with their words than the greatest liar of them all.