The Last Train

Lara

'I am in love with her, and she is dying, and there is nothing I can do to help!'  I thought to myself. She kept tearing me apart, every time I looked at her kissing someone else, every time i thought of her pain. Everytime I think about her smile I want to cry. But I can't because she won't die. She will live and I will see her smile again. Won't I? 'What if she doesn't want to see me when she wakes up because I didn't try to save her.'  I thought again. The thought made me cry, and then I pictured her standing over me, asking me, "Why are you crying, it's okay. Come on. I'm your honey bunches right. You have to believe in me." That thought made me laugh, which made me cry some more. The tears kept falling. And someone came up to me. One of the baristas. I didn't want to be around people at the moment, so I had "barricaded" myself under a table with the chairs. I was sobbing into my knees, it must have been as strange sight. But this person, still came to comfort me.
"Listen to me. I know you don't want to talk, and you wont for a long time if she dies, but the police are on their way," he said comfortingly as I heard the sirens ring out. "Hear them?" I heard the sirens of the police, we needed an ambulance, we, no I, I needed an ambulance because if Ria dies, I will fuckning be done. I will quit my job, and I will kill myself. I can't lose her. Not after all the pain i had to deal with to finally be with her. I am the one for her, not Liz, or Zali, or my brother, or Mathew. ME!! I have always been with her, in a way she will never understand. I thought her being with Mitch would make her happy, so i convinced him to date her. Before that I knew that if Liz broke up with her, it would break her. So I tried to talk her out of it. And when they broke up, I was the one that told Zali to call Levi, she didn't just decide to do that. I have always been behind her and her decisions, and I just want to make me happy now.