Decisions

Five years ago, everything started to change after graduation, I still remember everything. Today someone asked me -How did you end up here?- I couldn't answer with a simple summary those 5 years so I smile and said -Decisions, three important ones hehehehe- I'm not sure if I laugh because I was nervous, to be honest I do that all the time.

Here I am, living happily in Paris, learning a language I thought It was impossible, having my own apartment, working in a magnificent place, laying on this with comfortable sofa and after a bottle of wine or maybe two, I'm taking this notebook to write the decisions that took me here.

5 years ago...

...What are you going to do after graduation? - Edward asked me. He is one of those classmates that have the same kind of craziness that you also have, and therefore you are always sharing and laughing. But why that question?  Apparently that was the only subject to talk about, "I have no clue" was all I wanted to say and besides I was starting to get nervous because of the graduation was going to take place in a week, seven days from now and I still don't know what I would after.

-Well I'm going to keep up with the plan, try to accomplish all the goals I have in mind- I finally said after one minute of silence, not so sure about the words coming out of my mouth. According to me took longer than that but my swatch doesn't lie about the time.

-I wish you the best, you deserve it!!!- He responds smiling at me, I couldn't stop smiling back but with the doubt on my mind, if he only say it because he noticed my hesitation before I finally answer. Charles came to greet us, they kissed and left me there, I love that couple. The two of them are super cool. I spent three years hating that office where I was and on the other hand like usually happens at the end, I was going to miss the institute, my classmates, the life as a student there and my beloved darling.

-Mary please come in- Lizz called me, taking me out of my bubble of thinking, she is our vice-director. I enter to the office and sit down on a chair in front of her desk. -I looked at your file; everything is in order so you are officially ready for graduation!!!- said Lizz with a tone on her voice that show her excitement, which it was bigger than mine, and her fake accent, she is a woman who tried all the time so hard to look sophisticated.

-What are you going to do after the graduation? - There it was that same question again, but this time I didn't even try to lie. I smile and answer -I have no idea; I wish I could tell you something but the truth is I don't know-. Her immediate comment about my respond, kind of shock me, -There's nothing that you can do!, besides of keep working and try to make something out of your life, … if you can- she even kind of put some pity on her last words. I was breathing faster than usual, so start to control myself, erase all the emotion of my face and finally said -Thank you for the variety of options you just mention, I'll take them all in consideration, see you next week in the graduation-.

I stand up and left the office, when something peeves me and push me at the end of my rope, I tend to answer in harsh way; the funny part is that I make rhymes. When I stand in the stairs ready to leave the institute Charles called me. -Sweetheart where are you going? I bet you need me, I mean know so!- he smile at me with that peculiar tricky look. -We are equally evil, what about joining us "the sinners"- it was the first time that I heard him name our group of friends like that but he was right.

Everyone was sitting on the floor, talking about what they were going to do, wear, planned or would like to achieve after the title ceremony. I was quiet and thinking about what Lizz told me, "...if you can"- what if I can't, I was considering that possibility for a while when I took a decision.

-You know what!, I'll make something great with my life, I have all the chances, with God on my side nothing can stop me!- everyone turn around and looked at me like, what are you talking about?. I told everyone about my small or maybe tiny conversation with Lizz, all of them start to express their opinions about it and the resolution was "Lets go to beach and have fun together for the last time."