I. Am. Done. [Completed]

Psychiatrist visits

Kit's POV

Two days. That is how long it has been. They found out two days ago. And two days ago, I gave Yo the permission to tell Pha. He took it basically the same way that everyone else did. First confusion, then anger, and then concern. I'm glad they all cared. I feel like I'm being cared, loved. I feel like I matter.

I'm so glad to have them as my best friends.

I'm so thankful for them. 

...

I guess you are now thinking that in these two passed days, have I kept myself away from self-harm.

And the simple answer is; no, no I haven't. 

I still do it, but I have kept myself from doing it too much. I got enough support from my friends that I did not dare to do something that I would regret later. 

And I have been talking to Ming, everyday I talk with him. I haven't told him, of course I haven't, but talking to him makes me miss him less. I still miss him, so much, but he really is trying his best to make me feel great, even over the phone.

...

Today I'm going to the psychiatrist again. I have been there quite infrequently. I guess Hall has been busy. But now that I'm going there again, I'm planning on telling him everything. I mean everything I can remember or I think is important.

Before that, I still need to go to school.

Oh how nice. Lessons, friends, lunch, bullies... All that the school contains.

I am currently standing behind the gates. I can see my friends standing in front of the front doors. I could go to them, but unfortunately, the gang that hates me, is standing in between me and my friends. 

The guys being Yok, Lukmo, Fuse and Tee.

I seriously have no idea what is their problem. They just... hate me.

So, I'm going to wait here. Wait for the bells to ring, and that all of them are going inside.

It took 10 minutes to the bells to ring.

My friends went in, all the other students did too, exceptions being... the bully gang.

That means, if I want to make it n time, I need to go pass them. And I have to be in classes. I have been absent so often, that if I'm not attending to every class from now on, I can't pass this grade. I need to go pass them.

I started to walk. I'm walking as fast as I can, trying to slide pass them without them noticing. But it just turned out as I thought it would. Fuse stood in front of me, blocking the way.

"Aww, isn't it our favorite faggot! Would you like me to do something like..."

"Hey, let's all do that!" Lukmo cut him off. He took a hold of the back of my shirt. Seriously, after all this, do I need to suffer this too?