I. Am. Done. [Completed]

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Author's POV

Kit has been absent from school again. Yes, it might affect him passing this grade, but he has just felt so awful that he has not been able to function that much to put effort into school. Awful in a way that he has not been able to get out of bed easily. 

His friends are of course worried, but they knew that he needed space, and that he would contact them if he needed anything. So, they haven't bothered him at all by their presence. They have talked to him via texts, but didn't get much out of him.

Ming has not been able to reach him in a couple of days. Always when he called, Kit was sleeping. And if Kit saw his messages, he has just ignored them. Kit didn't want to talk to him with text messages. The calls were the only way he wanted to talk to him, face to face being still the most pleasant option. 

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Ming's POV

I'm getting really worried. 

Kitkat hasn't been answering me. Not even to my messages. We haven't talked for a week. My mind is just thinking about him, and my schoolwork is suffering from it.

I hope he is better now. For what he has told me, he is better, but now that he isn't answering me, I really can't be sure. 

Maybe I should just ask the gang. They know Kit's every move.

Why haven't I thought this before?

How stupid of me...

I should call Yo. 

Well, he is basically the only option. Beam and Yo are closest to me from the gang, and I know that Beam is currently busy. He has been spending more time with Forth, and told me about a week ago that he doesn't want me to contact him before Forth is his.

I can't believe him.

...

Yo it is then!

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"Sup man? Tell your thing quickly, I have to go to class!" So, he is busy too.

"Sorry Yo, but I really have to talk with one of you right now. Can't you skip the class?"

"No. But you could talk with Pha, he has a free hour. Pha, you okay with it? Good. Here take my phone."

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"Ming?"

"Yeah, you free to talk?"

"Yea...?"

"Have you seen Kitkat anywhere? He isn't answering me and I'm getting worried."

"Oh, no I haven't. He has been absent from school. He told us that he was too tired to attend."

"Tired?"

"Yeah, with everything that has been going on I'm not surprised at all."

"You mean the self-harm?" I think he already knows, based on the way he expressed that sentence.

"Yeah that too. The raping incident didn't help either... Have you asked him to search therapy for it? He doesn't listen to us."

"What raping thing?! Who got raped?" I almost yelled. Did he mean...?

Silence.

Long silence.

"He didn't tell you, did he?"

"Tell me what??"

"Shit."

"PHA!?"

He sighed on the other end of the call. "He got raped, by a drunk guy."

"WHAT??!!" I'm at school, yelling this. I got a lot of stares because of my sudden temper rising and yelling. I don't care tho. How could I? My sweet Kitty Kitkat got raped?? By a drunk guy?!

"Ming, chill."

"HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THAT??"

"They handled the situation."

"Who are they, how did they handle it, is Kitkat okay?"

"Beam, Forth and Kit beat him up. Kit is okay, he just thought that he let you down by getting raped. He thought he was cheating on you."

"How can he think that? It is nowhere near cheating!"

"I know it is not. But he thinks it is. It must be the reason why he didn't tell you."

I started to run towards the principals office. I have to do something.

"What are you going to do now, Ming?"

"I don't know exactly. There is not much I can do, is there?"

"No, I think not. We try to keep him clear from... well, you know. But Ming?"

"Hmm?"

"Come back soon. He needs you. More than you would ever think of."

"I will come as soon as possible. Keep my Kitkat safe na?"

"Of course we will."

"Thanks Pha." I cut the call.

I reserved an appointment with the principal. He had some other student before my turn, so I'm just sitting in the lobby. 

How selfish I am?
I knew he wasn't fine with me leaving at the first place. How could I leave him alone?
School is not as important to me as Kit, not even close. He is the light of my life, my happiness and my spirit. Basically my whole life, and when he is feeling like this, receiving this kind of treatment, I have no idea what am I supposed to do. It was my fault that began to treat himself like this, and when I found out about it, I didn't do anything.
I fucking did nothing!
And he isn't telling me things. Does he not trust me? Or is he that afraid of me leaving him?

"The principal will see you now."

I stood up.

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It is settled.

I will go home earlier.

I still would have about 5 months, but I got it shortened by a few months.

So I'm going back after one month.
I just have to do much more work, what means I can't talk with Kit as much as I normally would, but he isn't responding to me anyways. Maybe, now that I now he is just tired, it is actually good that he isn't talking with me. He gets to sleep and I get to study.

One month.

I will see you soon my Kitkat.

I will make you feel loved again.

I will help you out of this.

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